Let me tell you about a little event that happened that has me thinking about killing a guy. Now I haven’t felt homicidal sense 7th grade but this guy just brings it back to me. At the begining of July I went on a trip with (blank) people. there was 11 of us. 2 females and 9 guys. There was this one guy named martin that I (HAD) an interest in. We hung out for most of the trip and were kinda in to each other. He tried to get in my pants like every other guy I know and I repeatedly turned him down. When we got back from the trip we didn’t talk for a week. Then out of the blue he texts me asking if I want to go to safe way. I said no don’t have time but I would walk with him for a min before turning in. He tried to get me to go in this tunnel and I stopped and said lets just sit here and talk. I’m not exactly sure what was said in the beginning but some how the conversation went to him telling me that he sees why everyone hates me. ( What a way to make me suicidal.) I told him I was done and walked away, but I was to angry to leave it at that so I texted him and told him he was like all those other guys who raped me. ( that was very stupid of me and never done it before.) I told him he wasn’t the first to treat me like that and he wouldn’t be the last. Then he called ME a rapist. This pissed me off even more. Now I’m pissed, sad, depressed, emotional, suicidal and homicidal. Then he started telling other guys that I raped him. What a f**ked up person. Hes 5 foot 8 inches with muscles of a gorilla, and hes saying I over powered him. Ha. Well now every time I see him I just want to go up to him and stab him in the stomach. I don’t think I will ever have the balls to do it but I don’t like feeling like this.
two nights after he accused me of raping him I tried killing myself. I felt like I was the bad person. And its all my fault. I still feel like that some times now. wow let me rap this up. Not that anyone reads this anyways. Why do I continue to feel this way?
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zawwww Qw Q that is tragic…
I can see why you’d want to kill this guy. I kinda do, just reading about him!
Don’t. ‘Cause then you will be the bad guy.
Also don’t off yourself on account of this prik. I hate this about rape… makes you feel responsible… NOT YOUR FAULT. You have to remember that. Put the blame where it belongs.
It’s not your your fault… Don’t fight back or it will only make things worse I can tell you that. I’d kill him if I could because I think I’d be happier in a Juvenile detention centre. You only feel bad because he’s making you feel bad. He’s only doing that because he feels guilty… But I recommend you don’t take advise from the 11 year old.(me) Just ignore it and things will get better in the end. (listen to THAT part)
Your a good person. Even if you don’t wanna feel that way, it’s the feeling that lets you know your a good person.
If you did rape him you should feel glad. for one you over powered him. honestly, i don’t know why a dude would complain about being raped by a girl, I know i wouldn’t. maybe if you shoved something up his ass or made him choke. But hell you should feel good about that too because he probably liked it anyways. I got twenty bucks sayin he swallows… or you could say it!
But otherwise i’d say listen to the eleven year old. jus be cool.