Greetings to all, I just have a few questions to ask .
What do you do when  no matter what happens, your life just feels totally empty ?
Who can I talk to and disclose my innermost suicidal thoughts to if I don’t feel comfortable telling anyone in my life ?
How can I tell my loved ones the truth when all they do is get upset at my depression ? I can’t help but feel like my existence is such a burden to all who are close to me … like I am a plague that must be avoided and destroyed . If anyone can offer any advice, I would certainly appreciate you sharing it.
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you are not alone…
you are not alone in thinking & feeling like this..
This earthly real-life fucking sucks..hopeless
It sure does. I feel glimmers of hope , and I have a lot to be grateful for. However, I always let my pessimism get the best of me, and focus on all of the bad to the point of breaking down emotionally.
for your second question, if you have a really uncaring sibling, talk to him/her. My brother listens to me but doesn’t care.. i even told him my date of death haha
i don’t think people can be trusted with such heavy topics such as depression or suicide. The only people that will understand you are people like those on this site – those who are experiencing the same thing. But I wouldn’t say they are good people to talk to either, because they are dealing with their own problems dealing with death and darkness. That feeling of emptiness is always going to be present when you’re going through depression, no matter who you talk to, it’ll always be there. But if you are really seeking some sort of comfort, how about turning to a religion? Placement of God or another higher power in your heart can often fill feelings of loneliness. Back when I was a strong Christian, I never felt empty because I had Jesus in my life and he filled those holes i had in my heart. (Of course that was before I fucked everything up)
@jslee: I don’t mean to be offensive nor attacking you, but just asking a deep curious question: so where is ur “God” now?..did He let u go?..is He good, or not?..or is God not powerful enough?
Or,.is “God” just a mere many humans’ imaginations just so can create some comfort illusions just so they can get through this fucking cold, harsh life/Reality?…
I was once a Christian too, in fact, a very devout one.
But,.perhaps same like you,..look at where I am now..
At best,.now I’m an agnostic
(used to be an atheist, but I personally think being atheist is also a bit too arrogant for quickly assuming they KNOW 100% that there’s no God or Creator…I mean, how could they *know*?…have they traveled to the farthest corner of the Universe?..heck, even just leaving their house or neighborhood or city, they often can’t!..we’re all just a fucking LIMITED human beings,..we’re really nothing in the Grand Scheme of everything/Universe!..that’s the reality most people can’t event fathom nor they want to accept!..everybody just want to feel oh I’m so special..but too bad…we’re not, I guess.)
I hate the word atheist. We used to have these religious fucks (no offense to anyone) make fuckin fun of us for being “atheist,” using it as a prejudiced term. Fuck that shit, mutha fuckas from now on I ain’t fuckin atheist, I’m just plain fuckin NOT RELIGIOUS, as in I don’t believe there is a higher power watching over us.
humor is a good distraction from emptiness.. sometimes I find humor just in waching other people get so passionate and serious about bullshit that’s pretty much empty. if your friends or family aren’t funny I highly reccommend watching george carlin or bill hicks (on youtube).. it works for me sometimes.. there is no cure to emptiness and uselessness its just there like hands, but you can distract yourself from it (sometimes in more productive ways, guess some people got jobs and shit but they get to be misreable in a different way so hats off). plague is a good word; you’re on to something, checkout Wilhelm Reich’s writing on the emotional plague. oh.. and EVERYONE’S existance is a burdon to everyone they encounter on some level, some people just are arrogant and can’t accept that about themselves, they find it insulting to their vanity.
always remember that your life has a purpose. you just need to discover what is it. if you need someone to talk to, you are not alone we’re all here for you. but let me tell you this…..whatever is that you’re going through its just a phase you’ll get over it soon.
i hope i’m able to help you with this simple words.. (i’m from the Philippines) love love love and be happy….:)
if god doesnt exist why r any of us here? or we some sort of actident as sceince prclams? personally i didnt come from a monkey. not sure about some people though. in fact genetically speaking our dna matches more with pigs then stupid apes
I want to help every single person out there that I can, I’m here for any of you that need help on anything or just to talk about anything at all. I wish that people could see that they are more than what they know, heres my email if you want to contact me.. Please do so – drowning.in.soda@hotmail.com
I’m always looking for answers, but I’ve been told, “There is no answer.”
1. Positively stimulate your mind. Anything that will bring your peace and won’t hurt you or anyone else.
I try to free myself by watching films, attempting to write a book, doodling randomly, and composing silly songs. Something that makes me very focused that I don’t think too much about how I feel so disconnected from the world.
2. I wish I could talk to someone and trust them without doubt, but I don’t think it can happen. Even the most non-biased of human beings are subconsciously judgmental and because no one else is experiencing your certain thoughts, they are unable to fully understand. Sometimes, I feel comfort in the fact that at least I can comprehend my thoughts and have insight.
3. There’s not much you can do about their responses. Maybe they’re afraid and worried for you and express that through anger. They may not know know what to say to you, what to do, or how to help you.
Personally, I don’t think God should be brought up in logical situations. However, I’ve been advised to involve myself in a religious to ease my troubled feelings. I guess it can bring spiritual guidance or peace for some.
Nonetheless, I’ve already decided that I’m not going to follow through with that particular suggestion.
If my reply offended you or made you feel worse, I apologize.
Once again, all input is appreciated . I will say that I am not religious, and I request that no one responds to my posts with words of religion anymore . Thanks .