i just want to kill myself, but i cant because if anything happens to me family cant bare it. so i just want to die in a way that no one can know that i killed myself…they should think that its an accident…i wann 2 die…plz god help me
now i’m not afraid of any thing, i’m ready 2 bare the hurt that will be caused. just waiting for sister marriage, once if its done i’m going to plan for it.
i’m pissed off with my character…because of which i lost most valuable person in my life
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Before you do it, you should think about one thing… about all the sadness you’re dead will bring to you’re family and friends. I know it’s hard to lose someone, i’ve lost a lot of friends at the hospital when i was there for my cancer. Think about you’re family who love you, think about you’re sister am pretty sure she love you and she still needs you in her life. There’s a lot of people who love you, think about it. And if you really don’t care about the sadness you will bring to all the people you love. You’re family and friends…
yah i know they love me alot and my family need me even, but i’m unable to come out it…day by day my character is hurting me alot.
i’m not in depression… if i’m so i would had committed suicide now itself…but i want to settle everything for my family before i do that…after that only want to let me free from this pain
You’re family will never let you go they love you. You need to understand there’s not only death.. or sadness.. am pretty sure you’re happy about the fact you’re sister will get married soon ? Am pretty sure you love her ? If you do, think about the fact that how she will feel to know that her brother will never be there again.. And how she will feel that one day when she will have a chidlren… this children will never have the chance to meet his uncle ?
I would love to say the good thing to you, i would love to know you understand what am trying to tell you. That life is not only sadness. Life is some time hard on you. Life is like a storm, you need to go throught it. To know where’s the rainbow.. You’re not alone. You deserve better then death am pretty sure. You deserve to find this rainbow. Am pretty sure you’re a courageous person. Take this courage deep in you, and try.. to go throught this storm and prove to yourself that you’re better then this little creepy thing called life ! I hope these words will give you some courage.. Am pretty sure if i knew you in real life we could be good friends. One last thing. Don’t surrender. I have cancer, at the moment.. and i did not planned to surrender.
Thank Q soo much for the most valuable advise…i just want tell one thing, i know the value of life and love thats filled in my life. I’m not surrendering, i just want to releave myself from this pain. no one can accept the pain that i’m carrying in my heart, the one who knows is not ready to feel it. As i said dis feeling is not out of depression or frustration, its the decision that came out of pain.
What kind of pain do you mean? Is it physical? I also gave myself a deadline like you… after 2 weddings and a 60th birthday. I knew, even then, that I was deluding myself if I thought it was going to be ‘OK’ if I waiting until all that was over before topping myself. The reality is that whether you are at those weddings or not, they’re still going to miss you forever.