Whats this mean to you?

Your heart beats louder, your lungs feel weighted out of stress.  Your confused cause your thinking of nothing as if something should be there.  You want something to appear regardless of your own desire, to focus on it and acknowledge it.  Leaving everything else as a background.  You convince yourself its there while in full conviction it decides whether or not it can stay.  You separate  your self to lighten the stress and your heart finds balance again, and you seem to have found it’s been nothing all along but yourself.