Hello guys :]
so another shift is done. Well, strange one, no suiciders, no depressed people.. Just similar calls with MI, traumas and so on.. Even psychiatric was chilling. But we were speaking about last week. .
It was romantic suiciders, as i say. There lived two girls, lesbians we guess. So one got depression and suicied. After two days, IT team went to call and saw that other alive jumped from 4th floor. She didnt want to live without her. So decided to die. And like nearly always, our team brought her to life. So her punishment, or how to call it, is to lay in IT room like vegetable. Doc say she will be alive but all life in pain. Was it worth? How they can’t find a power to live without the other one? Maybe it was that Real Love?
Another Love-Dead story was more sad.. The girl left a boy. 18 years. First Pure Love. He was praying her to come back.. She didn’t. So he went on the bridge and was typing her sms that he will jump, if she won’t Love Him. Thats insane! You can’t say it to ya hear – love now! So she was thinking he’s not serious, come on.. And after 2 days our team with firefighters found his body 2 km in the river after bridge. Again – he couldn’t handle life without her. . How can she joy her life now?!
I don’t know.. When my bf suicided, my Father said, that he didn’t respect You and didn’t love. Because when You love someone – You will never destroy life like this. I mean, it’s a footprint forever in soul and it will never go away. If i love someone, i will never leave him in pain like this. I’d rather move out to another country, i’d rather stay in pain..
And if You have Love in Your life, even ex-Love, if You have family and want to suicide.. If You have someone who loves You.. and You still want to leave the world – i can tell You what pain You will leave. How You will destroy happiness forever. How You will stay in them minds every single day. And how much will they need to suffer.
Nothing ends with death. People stay here and You can’t call it normal life when every day they blame themselves. Pack Your stuffs, hitchhike to the world, go work in volunteer, run into another continent, but don’t leave Your family like that. Coz i know that pain.
THINK ABOUT IT.
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you from michigan? What city?
I’m from Europe :]
I kinda wanna do that job, rushing to find hurt people. Not gonna say it’d be fun, but I think it’d be interesting
after some time, its fun ! you cant work if u dont love it..
Are you a suicidal Paramedic Black-Scorpio?
I really don’t know. I think you should stop whining about the people who tried to die, when you are the one who is prolonging the pain. If you get to an accident site is there ever a case where it is obviously a suicide, and you just accept the fact and kinda make it look like you’re doing something, and then be like, “Oops, we’re too late” etc?
Because I think in a sense you are denying a person’s right to free choice if you bring them back as a vegetable, in a position far worse than before, now with NO possibility of dropping out the game early.
Can you say to hospital staff.I write a note saying if i’m not dead I don’t want to be on life support or in any care facility.Will they respect my wishes
@askredead: Black_Scorpio needs to do his (I’m assuming you’re a guy?) job, and the job of a paramedic is to save lives.
I’m also pro-choice, provided that the decision is undertaken with careful consideration. The girl who jumped from the fourth floor obviously did not research on the method of jumping before attempting suicide, so…
I personally prefer it if information is more freely available. Failed attempts really are the worst for everyone.
@noom: In my country, we can sign a form at 21 years of age stating that we do not wish to remain on life support. Not sure about the policies in your country, though.
Also, don’t you realise how many people love others for selfish reasons? For example, a year or 2 ago, I got depressed bad. I fell into a huge hole, and I couldn’t be around people who I thought cared for me. So I isolated myself, and when I stopped hanging out with my friends after a short time they didn’t have the time for me. As soon as I couldn’t hang out and make them feel good, nobody could give two shits. You talk as if you know what love is about, when it’s really about control, manipulation, dominion – at least from what I have seen and experienced. All self-seeking interests, and there’s probably only 10% of all relationships based on real love. So if you really want to help people here, start asking the right questions to the people posting and quit damning suicidal thinkers with your BS
So if a Paramedic finds me say unconscious but still alive (bag over my head connected to two gas tanks)I can leave a note visible saying to leave me a lone,don’t try to save me.
@teshyn.What is you are a veg and cannot sign a consent form.cos you won’t be deemed to be in a state of mind to be able to make the decision
i’m a girl, not a guy, teshyn.
ok, i’ll stop typing.
Job is the only one thing in my life i still have..
@black scorpio – Don’t pay any attention, I’m very sorry that ontop of the terribly stressful job you do, you have to get comments from people like this saying it’s worthless. It’s NOT. you are morally and legally obligated to bring people to life, not a small task at all. Then there are those cases of suiciders being brought back to life and completely changing their minds about death – you probably don’t get to see that because that change happens weeks later. You provide a wonderful service at considerable cost to your personal mental and physical health – so head held high, girl.
@askredead – stop attacking scorpio personally. She has a moral and legal obligation to save lives, end of story. If you want to turn the tables on the morality card, what you’re asking is really unfair: you think she should go against her own morality, and let people die? That’s an unfair situation to put anyone in: I would never ask someone to do something they find morally reprehensible, it is completely unreasonable. You want to kill yourself, fine, but don’t sully anyone else’s morality with your decision…
And, I’m sorry you are so jaded about love. Love is meant to be unconditional – regardless of if they are there for you when you need them etc etc. it’s not tit for tat. So maybe the reason you haven’t found love is because you don’t understand it.
@noom – if a paramedic finds you, they MUST try to bring you back to life. You can’t write a note and tell them to leave you alone because if they do, they would be breaking the law. however you can sign a consent form to say that If you wind up a vegetable (ie. alive but in a comatose state) you want to be taken off life support.
@Black_Scorpio: Ah, sorry about that.
@noom: It’s just like what one_day said. Leaving a note for the paramedics won’t be much use. In my country you need both a doctor and another witness to ensure that you’re not being forced into signing the consent form, and that you fully understand what signing the form entails (aka in the right state of mind).
@ one_day
Yea, well most things in life aren’t what they should be. Love is basically spiritualized lust, something which at its heart is carnal – which most people cannot reign in appropriately so 90% of the time, love is manifested in the wrong ways. I understand what love in its proper form is, I’ve just never been extended it so I can’t give it out to others. And don’t talk about morality – pulling someone out of the clutches of death to leave them a vegetable for years to come is morally reprehensible to me.
@askredead – yes, that is morally reprehensible – TO YOU. Leaving someone to die when it’s your job to bring them to life is morally reprehensible TO THEM. Point being, everyone’s morality is different and you cannot force your brand of morality onto other people. Therefore, if you chose to off yourself, do it properly so you don’t have to blame the poor bastard who finds you who is just doing their job.
And about love… love in it’s romantic form was a literary construct of the romantic poets in the 1800s or so. Previous to that, there was no differentiation between ‘romantic’ and ‘platonic’ love – the love between a man and a woman was described in the same way as the love between a mother and child. So it is not ‘spiritualised lust’. Lust is lust and love is love, and real love is unconditional. The fact that you ‘need’ love before you can give it, indicates that you are viewing it as some kind of quantifyable commodity, to be bought and sold and traded. It don’t work that way – I hope you work it out.
in all of my patiens, i had never even a little doubt to help or not. They always ask to leave them to die, but we never do. Because the fact, that ambulance came is the fact, that they still have a hope.
Yes, i am being angry sometimes of the reasons they say, but also i know that they just can’t see the world it is. All about chemistry in brain.
You can leave thousonds of papers – i still will fight for you.
Just on very rare situations, when we see that there is a chance, but after it the human will lay like a vegetable all the time, and brain is dead, we play a death game.. and at the same time savig lots of time for family and helping poor soul to leave. But just on cases we are totally sure that brain is dead.
Thank You. You just helped me to remember the meaning of my job.. Coz working and working and working.. we just forget why we do that. Robots.
It will always stay in my heart. My people, my ambulance, my teams, my boss.