If any of you have seen my post “Ohh..life..” you’d know how I’m feeling right now, but it’s getting incredibly worse as the days go by.
My ex John, just got out of Juvy, and he can’t tell me why he went in the first place because the judge said so, and it’s irritating me, hella.
My ‘friends’ all leave me, so I’m always alone.
I’m getting a referral because I was late to the bus by like, a minute.. \:
I sit in my room, all day, just crying. I started cutting again.. and it’s getting back to as bad as it used to be. I’ve been thinking about how to die lately. Either pills, overdose, or bleeding.. maybe a car accident.. who knows. I just feel so useless and pointless to the world. I haven’t felt happiness in over 7 years..even though I’m only 14, I’ve been depressed for the longest time. I’m shocked I even have enough strength to put on a fake smile. I just want out of this world.. there’s no point for me.. I’m better off gone, I just know it..
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krissaycrunk,
if I were you, I would try to look to things ahead, instead of dwell on the past, and maybe even the present. I don’t mean to tell you that the past/present doesn’t matter, but rather that where you are looking toward will really affect your outlook on life.
why do you think you are better off gone? and why were you happy 7 years ago but not now? do you know what life is about? most people don’t, and are very confused at what they’re supposed to be doing, and they always try to fill their emptiness. then they find something that they think fills the emptiness, but it doesn’t really, and when they realize that they’re empty still, they lose some hope. but while most people keep finding things to make them feel like they’re really alive, some people don’t.
I would be happy to talk with you (or anyone) about this, if you’d email me (see my username). I hope you will
I just don’t know anymore. Read my earlier post, “Ohh.. life..” and you’ll know why I’m not happy anymore.
After everything, I just stopped thinking about the future, and stopped caring about life. I don’t care anymore, I just want it to all end.
Are you still here?.. I really don’t want to believe you’ve given up already. If you need anyone to talk to, please, feel free to contact me: jquilly@mindless.com