I just started grad school in August. I thought I had a group of friends, but recently I found out they don’t like me. I had a serious boyfriend, he left me because he didn’t trust me and was tired of dealing with me. I have no one here. I am so alone. No one cares, my boyfriend used to care about everything that happened in my day, he wanted to know everything. Now, no one even talks to me. No one says hi to me, even people I’ve met before and spent time with. No one texts or calls me, emails me or messages me. I am so alone. I just don’t want to do this anymore. I have tried making friends, I guess there is just something wrong with me. Everyday I have thoughts of dying, I will cross the street and will hope for a car to come out of no where and hit me, I walk slower now in hopes that it will happen. I don’t need much, just a friend who I can talk to during the day, complain about class and know that they care and are listening, but I can’t find it. I haven’t been eating, I don’t care about anything anymore, I just want this all to go away.
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Hi, I’m Willy101, i am very depressed too, and I am having a hard time with friendship and love, i know it hard to trust someone you don’t know anything about.
But i won’t mind listning to you, i migth even find it interesting, and i do like to comfort people.
If you want to give mea chance at being your friend, give me and E-mail
Viktor@carle.dk
I’ll send you one back
I’m not invisible unfortunatley.
But me too I have pretty much had as much as I can take.
No amount of revenge will wipe away the memories.
It’s the truth.
Few practical advice:
You should find a good psychiatrist immediately, search the web, look around and ask on web forums, also, your grad school teacher maybe can recommend one. Search around the web there are many forums and chat rooms where you can communicate with people with similar problems.
Be carefull, everywhere there are some people who want to make victim of sensitive ones
Generally, they feel your weaknes, your longing for company and you might fell prey very easily. (I dont want to frighten you, this is my own hard learned wisdom.)
These want to control you, take away your money, find joy in defeating weak souls.
Dont let yourself get fooled.
Finish the grad school to have your degree.
Read this post:
http://suicideproject.org/2011/10/52563/
There’s nothing wrong with you, you’ve just got to find people who appreciate who you are. They’re out there, you’ve just got to look and keep an open mind.