Whatever happens I have to get out of this hellhole city. It is hard to research places though. I’m not really well-traveled and trying to look on the internet or even travel agencies is extremely time-inefficient considering I don’t want to play tourist and my general intent. I wonder how it would go though, going to a travel agency asking for a nice well-priced dying travel plan. Would have to go suited up so I don’t get kicked out too fast. What bizarre gonzo gallows prank that would be. Wish I had it in me to pull out these things. It would definitely give the chick an anecdote to tell on lunch breaks till the end of entropy.
Anyway, I’d need a place that is as little touristy as possible while still being nice. Nature calms me. Don’t know how likely it is you people can help with this but at least I don’t have to conceal my reasons so might as well. Do you know a forest I could go to. I’d need it to be large enough that after 2/3 days of walking I’d still be nowhere near the end of it nor be likely to be found/run across other people.
Preferably in a country where I can get by in english, spanish or French. It’s not an absolute necessity though.
Don’t say the amazon. On paper it’s probably the obvious choice but tropical forests actually are extremely hostile environments and I need peace not an “adventure” besides I like temperate/cold climates best.
Thanks for your help and/or attention.
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If you look on Wiki, there’s a list of suicide sites. What particularly caught my eye was Aokigahara forest, near Mt Fuji in Japan. Apparently it’s the second most popular site. Officials tour the area to deter potential suicides, but if you get in deep enough it should be fine.
Don’t know much about sparsely populated forrests… but I think maybe your scandanavia instinct was right… Norway is lovely, and not too touristy.
If you’re prepared to travel further and ditch the forrest idea, maybe Africa or Australia might be options. In terms of minimising human traffic, they are probably the few countries where you can still get those wide open spaces
I never fail to be amused at how bizarre things can get. Japan doesn’t seem too practical, especially in case of failure which I hope to if I go ahead with it but must always be taken into account.
Australia where exactly?
There are huge regions of australia where there is nothing and no one. Main roads hug the coastline, connecting the larger cities. There is a main road that cuts horizontally accross the country and one that cuts vertically. Appart from that, everywhere else is positively deserted, most of it doesn’t even have cell phone coverage. No forrests, though…
Well, that is something to consider…Any entry point to the nothingness you’d recommend?
Perth, Darwin, Alice Springs or adelaide – the nothingness lies in between these major cities. Although coming from europe, I assume cheapest flights fly into Perth, Darwin or Sydney. If you pass through Sydney, drop me a line.
“If you pass through Sydney, drop me a line.”
Why? If you have useful info please spill the beans now 😛
No, nothing useful, just saying I live in Sydney and if you’d like to say Hello before you say Goodbye I will be here.
It really is absurd to come so far only to die. I hope wherever you end up, you will do some travelling also.
hey i understand you so much. In fact i have the same idea. I am heady in north of cairns next week. I plan to lose myself in a rainforest known as daintree forest by cape tripulation (by the way this is in northern australia and im from new zealand. Nature feels me with a strong sense of peace. I may or may not come out of this forest . Email m if you would like to talk jenny_xmas@hotmail.com
@jensta49
I’d usually be too proud to respond to these things but I feel this is actually an important thing to feel a connection about, seems so little people actually understand this kind of peace. Expect that email later, probably “tomorrow” considering the timezones. Wish I could join you, still have things to take care about though.
Thanks.
@one_day
“It really is absurd to come so far only to die.” ……?
You’d actually be willing to meet some complete stranger knowing a few days afterwards he would die alone in the wilderness? That is hilariously morbid and yet awesome. It is a nice thought though. You better be a woman of her word now because if things come to pass and I do choose Australia I’m definitely going through Sydney now. Whatever happens I thank you for your kindness. It’s nice to have someone listening.
You know what blows about the internet? It shows that some degree of connection or empathy, just not anywhere near where you can see them. It robbed isolation of its heroic dread.
@jensta and Absurdist – the daintree is not such a big or dense rainforest to get lost in, and it is a tourist attraction so there will be tourgroups. I don’t know how deep you need to go to get away from the tourgroups, but it is a very fragile ecosystem and I hope you tread carfeully.
@absurdist – anyone I meet could get hit by a truck 2 days after I meet them. I don’t see that as any different to meeting someone who plans to do themselves in. I have already met one person off this wesite (inspirational! And I will send you an email very soon!) and it was a wonderful experience to know that, amongst the many obstacles we can overcome, the annonymity of internet is one of them. FYI, that ‘degree of connection or empathy’ that you feel is only allowed through internet? Well, with me it’s real life as well. Tends to freak people out a bit. But yeah, I am just as honest and intense in real life as I am in cyberspace.
Look, I am going to level with you… I don’t believe anyone capable of making and executing a plan to go to Australia from Spain is quite ready to die yet. So if we do end up meeting, I won’t be assuming I’m meeting a dead man walking.
If you come through Perth, I would also be there for you 🙂
And we have pretty awesome forests down in the Southwest.
I’ve read many of your posts, although I’ve been pretty quiet myself, you strike me as a person I’d like to meet, preferably under different circumstances, but I pretty much agree with one_day.
@ The Absurdist; Howdy. I always thought the area around Moab, Utah would be a good place to get lost. The weather in the Fall is pretty nice, winters are cold. There are miles of nothingness in all directions, and it’s a combination of high altitude desert, forests, and far out rock formations. If you got “lost” there in the Fall, you might not ever be found. Your body would probably get recycled by the local wildlife. There would be no need for a funeral, burial, etc. People wouldn’t know what you had done. They’d say “He disappeared, we don’t know what happened to him”. As an added bonus, your corpse would provide a free meal for some wild animals.
@everyone,
please don’t think of doing these things. please just don’t. I know none of you actually think suicide is the answer, and you just prefer to not live, but why? I understand that the world’s a ruthless place and societies are often heartless, but why die? why not try to go against this flow, and become a help to those who are suffering from it? why not help others?
please would you (reader) contact me and tell me why you want to die, and what you think of what i’ve said above? I really hope that I can help someone, because I know why we’re all alive still. my email address is my username. please email me if you are willing to hear me out
If you like cold climates, I would suggest coming to Quebec. It’s beautiful here this time of year. It’ll be desolate in a couple of weeks. There’s something beautiful about hanging amongst leafless trees. I wish I had the peace to hang myself without knowing if I will be found or not. I just can’t envision that. Good luck finding your peace, The Absurdist.
@one_day
Y u so fly girl? Seriously though, we talked about this before, I’ll never be really “ready to die” I just don’t see how to escape my dilemma. If we ever met like that you would be meeting a man that torched all bridges behind him. And no I don’t believe true connection is limited to the internet (ba dum tsh), it’s just so damn rare. In all my life I’ve made a grand total of 2 true friends.I can’t help but share other people’s bafflement at your reasons for being there. Still I very much appreciate your taking the time to talk to me.
@abuse survivor
Australia’s looking better by the second 😀 . Feeling’s mutual. In fact it’s a somewhat frequent feeling seeing the people around here. So regrettable.
@lucy4
Hey there Chariot man. How’s your new job going? Sounds cool what you saying there. For a snooty european that chortles richly at your inferior american culture (doesn’t stop us from importing TV shows and concepts wholesale and making them the top shit in the charts) I didn’t imagine there were still large enough stretches of wilderness not bulldozed to make way for malls.
@seaglass772
Huh? I don’t doubt your intentions are noble but really now… one_day and lucy4 are not really suicidal, I don’t think abuse survivor is either and my reasons are somewhere in the sea of past posts soo yeah…
@Lilou
Merci beaucoup mademoiselle 😛 on verra bien qu’est-ce qui arrive…
@ The Absurdist; Inferior American Culture?! Are you forgetting MacDonalds, disco, the atomic bomb, romantic comedies, a new war every 20 years, etc.,…
There’s still vast areas of open, uninhabited land in the West. Mountains, deserts, valleys. Montana is a great place to disappear, too. It’s ranked 4rth in land size, something like 44th in population. They’ve also had a number of famous serial killers. Hmm. Serial Killers…that’s probably an American thing too.
Comw to BC canada man, we got shit loads of forests her
But mind the grizzly bears
@absurdist : I am an I am not (suicidal that is). My rational, and moral side is fighting against it, my emotional, damaged, abused side is yearning for it. At the moment the rational side is winning, and I think I am starting to heal, starting being the operative word.
The thing is, like one_day, I’ve not just been down there, I’ve been pretty much at home down there in that pitch black lonely place.
But I am also fighting, and I genuinly like to help people
I don’t condemn suicide, how could I, but only when all else fails, and after you have very carefully considered the consequences for those left behind.
Yeah, where are you from absurdist?
I have a stab in the dark: Germany?
…or France…
@ abuse survivor; I don’t want to speak for the Absurdist, but he mentioned earlier he’s currently in Spain, by way of France.
Actually, if you do head down under I’ll make it easier and head to Perth… I got family there anyway, and abuse_survivor makes a pretty mean carrot cake!
Canada and america might be good options, actually, for deserted forest.
@survivor, isn’t it funny, that question: are you suicidal? Its a yes or no question… but it’s rarely that simple… what does it mean to be ‘suicidal’? Does entertaining suicidal thoughts count? I often tell my friends ‘Yeah I went through a bad patch but its ok now’ and they think ‘oh fine’… and they think everything is fine and forgotten… it’s rarely that simple, depression isn’t a tap that you switch on and off. So yeah… suicide simply is not an option for me but that don’t mean I don’t think about it… I don’t know if that makes me ‘not suicidal’.
I have been meaning to send you an email, I just take a while to organise my thoughts. And, doing my taxes…
Hey You people talkin’ bout me behind my back? Yeah, I live in Spain these days but my passport says France. Technically I’m french I guess, though I hate France, Paris mainly, with all my black soot stained heart. Maybe that’s a story for another day, right now it’s 2:40 here and I really should get to bed. Night night
hehehe. I figured researching the archives would reveal what you had already admitted. Pardon mwah.
Night night, good talking to you, now I am ready to start my day 🙂
One_day, same here, meaning to email, too much in my head. Xxx