I don’t want to think of suicide. I truly don’t. Yet, my life is becoming unbearable to the point of which I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m helpless. I’m desperate. Any response would help me:
Over the last 4 and 1/2 years, I’ve switched high-school, gone to university. Along with this – that is, the changing of schools – my greatest hope would be to have, to make friends.
But it hasn’t happened.
I’ve prayed; I’ve practiced patience. But nothing has changed my situation.
I have no friends. I have no one to call on my cell phone (my contact list) is empty. I have no one to hang out with. I haven’t been to a party, a gathering, a film. I haven’t kissed someone from the opposite sex (I’m straight).
I didn’t go to Prom. I haven’t hung with anyone in lunch-hour – it was so bad, I slept in my own car one time (I’m crying right now because of it)
And the more I cry I about this (I cry every other night – and i’m 19), and the more I try to show God how truly desperate I am, the heavier the burden is and I don’t know where to go.
I need help: I can’t contact a therapist – if I did, it would make the burden that much more harder, that much more obvious.
I need a response; some help from anyone on the internet. Just responds, please.
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im the biggest screwup in the world. im 15 single and very very alone. i have friends family a awsome fosterfamily, i should be happy right? but im not you can email me at ckgodsister@gmail.com
What seems to be the problem?
I know what it feels like to feel that alone. Its such an empty feeling. Post your MSN if you want to chat.
^— i feel exactly the same alone. its really hard. If you want to talk I have msn too or other things
Mmk, hi. I understand your situation. I’m a loner so I’ve gotten used to being alone pretty much from day one. Hmm.. hang in there, dear.
Here is the thing: You have to learn that YOU are going to create your own fulfillment. I am surrounded by people all the time who love me and I still feel THAT alone in the world. It is not a matter of being popular, talking to girls (or guys), going to parties. It is a matter of finding something within yourself that makes you valuble. Posting on here makes you valuble. Someone somewhere in the world is going to read this and know that they have a friend. Counseling will NOT make things worse. You need someone on your side. Love yourself!