Not many more days, hours to live

  October 4th, 2011 by gladiator_death

I don’t want to think of suicide. I truly don’t. Yet, my life is becoming unbearable to the point of which I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m helpless. I’m desperate. Any response would help me:

Over the last 4 and 1/2 years, I’ve switched high-school, gone to university. Along with this – that is, the changing of schools – my greatest hope would be to have, to make friends.

But it hasn’t happened.

I’ve prayed; I’ve practiced patience. But nothing has changed my situation.

I have no friends. I have no one to call on my cell phone (my contact list) is empty. I have no one to hang out with. I haven’t been to a party, a gathering, a film. I haven’t kissed someone from the opposite sex (I’m straight).

I didn’t go to Prom. I haven’t hung with anyone in lunch-hour – it was so bad, I slept in my own car one time (I’m crying right now because of it)

And the more I cry I about this (I cry every other night – and i’m 19), and the more I try to show God how truly desperate I am, the heavier the burden is and I don’t know where to go.

I need help: I can’t contact a therapist – if I did, it would make the burden that much more harder, that much more obvious.

I need a response; some help from anyone on the internet. Just responds, please.

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