One step at a time…

There are 5 simple steps to ending one’s own life.

Step 1: Decide on a method (In my case lethal drug)

Step 2: Look into ways of acquiring anything needed (Trawling the internet for resources)

Step 3: Acquire any items needed (I’ll be sending payment tomorrow, should take 5-7 days for it to arrive fingers crossed – I’m 95% sure the person isn’t a scam artist)

Step 4: Prepare for the final scene… (In my case writing the note, tying up a couple of loose ends, getting everything set up, etc)

Step 5: Do it.

I’m only halfway there, and alot hinges on whether this person I came into contact with is legit, but if everything runs like it should I can finally be pain-free in the black embrace of nothingness in just over a week at the very earliest. Today I told someone that I planned to kill myself. I guess I figure that if I am truly meant to die then they won’t do anything (I think they won’t). A week or two should be long enough for the universe to intervene if I really am meant to stick around.