Original posters

So many Op’s from the early days of SP. Then there’s the new OPs that I once read their amazing posts. That was before all the new faces. Now there’s posts that have song lyrics, my last words my last post on facebook (ex. darkblue) I’m still sad that lolfailz agitated the need to take the pills. 5000mg and 2000mg more I remember. He will slit his wrists at the sane time she dies. He says he made a lil kid kill herself (age 13). Well I think rogue is slowly creeping back in my brain. (he is silently whispering to me… Influencing my thoughts). Well, to all the new people on this site. Just hang on, if I can live with a fucked up heart <) (that's my heart, it yearns for Nycolle but I'm falling for my blood cousin jasmine) then you can last a little while later. I will go until I'm 18 with a poisoned heart it hurts every day it has a weird feeling I think anxiety in which I hate. I have to live with it. An emotional and mental thing gives me physical pains. How does it work like that? I might have a a panic attack soon. My heart rate is up and I am worried harder to breath. (Just take a deep breath…) no I should stop breathing I wanna choke myself (breath!!!). I have to look normal as my family passes by.

Well I hope SP administrators will add some new features. I like SP the way it's been for the past years I've been on. But life is changing so much. If SP doesn't adapt then it will not be relating to life. In a way…

I'm breathing normal again I still can't cry. My heart still hurts like a poison is going through it. Hope it dies already why won't it stop.