My name is Madie…I’m a young girl, still in school, and I get bullied very badly…I get very good grades, so I’m a nerd…I cut myself, so I’m “emo”…I asked for help, so I’m a snitch…I stopped eating because people were calling me fat…Now…It’s so bad that I FAKE being sick so I don’t have to go to school…I stay in my room all day…My parents hate that…What they don’t know is that I’m usually getting help on my suicidal thoughts or just doing the weeks homework or writing down my true feelings…sounds SO cheesy…”writing down your true feelngs” But…when you’re like me and don’t have a voice…It’s l all you have left…This may not SEEM important…but I am a blonde, naturally…I am also in all AP classes…where, strangely, there are NO blondes…So when we sometimes have a sub and they have no idea where I am because I NEVER talk…everyone just screams, “It’s the BLONDE over there!” It makes me feel unwanted…stupid….like an outcast..a freak…I had a friend…she was my best friend since BIRTH…one of her guy friends lied and made a plan to hurt me and ‘date me’, but then break my heart in front of everyone…even AFTER all the HORRIBLE things that he did…said…she STILL talks to him. She acted like NOTHING happend! That makes me feel like no one is there…do you know why? Because, as of now, THERE IS NO ONE HERE!
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You have a gift of being a smart girl and with you being smart you will get somewhere in life then any of the other kids that pick on you and they pick on you because probably all they have is there looks and they know that they are not getting anywhere in life .. u have to stay strong and keep your head held high losing good people in this world is.not what we need ..remember god put you on this earth for a reason
Hey Madie-hang on girl..I have the same problems, life is hard for smart and sensative girls. On paper I have it, summa grad from a top jesuit ivy college, a law degree, great beauty, a husband who loves me…but my life fell apart.
I got bullied this summer at a new position, because I am still pretty (getting up there), my secretary treated me so unkind form the beginning even when I begged her to “work with me:, I did nothing wrong, she reported me to HR for wearing perfume and she and her friends stuffed poison pen letters under my office door…I suffered through all this because I needed the job. Now, they have let me go…yet that witch will keep hers?
I don’t eat, and have had bouts with anorexia my whole adult life. Like you I was picked on in school…and I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but when you are sensitive and smart and pretty too things are HARD.
Don’t take it out on yourself, these people are just lower than low, and I don’t know but I heard in a sitcom once, “Assholes rule the world.” I think its true.
If you can grow a thick skin, you’ll be better off…I never could.
Sorry Maddie… your school is full of sheep and you should stop trying to change yourself to be what they want you to be. They call you fat? Tell them they’re too skinny. They call you emo? Call them clones. You’re a nerd? Well they are stupid. They have their own insecurities which is why they try to hurt you, just recognise their name-calling as a symptom of their own failings. Your best friend is not very loyal… because she is a sheep too… which doesn’t make her a bad person, sadly most people in school are sheep. Don’t think about it too much, things get better after school, promise.
Hi, MadieDoesFeelPain. You get good grades, awesome. Try, for tomorrow is worth it…. because none of them will ever know who you are, they’ll just not capable of complicated thought. At school I had it the same, hated for not being clueless like others or just for being unique and different. Your best friend totally failed you, and some guy acted like a jerk… they sound really really really ORDINARY. Someone as aware and in tune with life like you… you’re way to special to lower yourself to be like that…