I really need to stop taking these until the day I choose. I wake up feeling pretty good and not suicidal. Thats the problem. I need to stay feeling suicidal if I’m gonna get it done. It’s really hard to kill yourself when your not feeling bad, lol.
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Feeling suicidal is unnatural, feeling good is what everyone’s looking for. Why deny yourself joy?
I wish there was a simple answer, there isn’t.
The pills are really are a hinderence, they don’t change that facts of my pardicament.
It’s more like a self imposed death penalty/execution.
I just keep putting off the inevitable.
I wish I was deeply depressed like in years past, it would be so easy to carry through it.
Yeah, I’m sorry. Just trying to be helpful, you know, talking someone down off the ledge, as they say. I’m not you, I’m not in your situation…..I guess it’s easy to be an armchair quarterback when I’m watching the game on the screen, and I’m not on the field.
I’ve heard stories of people experiencing major life transformations in prison. Getting in shape, getting married, writing a book, finding Jesus/Allah/Buddha, whatever. Sometimes people get released early due to DNA evidence, the case gets re-opened, whatever. Maybe you could escape…leave the country, get a new identity, start over….? Death just seems so fucking FINAL. There has to be a plan #B. Once the deed is done, game over.
thankx for posting lucy
I have 2 different methods “at hand”, yet don’t desire either way. I’m seeking some meds, yet have alot of difficulty getting what I think I need.
I just wish for a peaceful crossover or exit, no stress of having to use the 2 methods I currently have.
I care about what other have to see, no matter who they are when a body is found. Some think these people are immune to that stuff, …….. I think not, ………. they are human and everytime they have to work a scene it has to affect them.
I could get a small boat and go deep into the surrounding swamps, get out walk as far as I can deeper into the trees and do it. The body wouldn’t be found for many years, or maybe never.
If you believe in Karma, we all get what we deserve (eventually). If you cheat karma in this lifetime, you’ll have to pay your debt in the next life. There are those, it is thought, who are re-paying karmic debts now from transgressions committed in previous lives.
How much of this is BS or real, I dunno. I’m merely suggesting that death is not necessarily an answer to all of our problems. (I have zero scientific evidence to back up this theory, by the way). Death seems like a convenient way to wrap up a less than perfect life on earth, but what if you just pick up where you left off in the next world? What if whatever shit you need to face now will be waiting for you down the road?
It’s depressing, yeah, but we can’t file chapter 11 on our karmic debts. Hopefully I’m wrong, but if there’s any justice in the universe, eventually we’ll all have our day of reckoning.
I’m not an expert on Karma, it was my understanding that if a new life is what Karma brings after death, its for the purpose of correcting or perfecting the next life.
We would return at birth as a child, ……. might be born in hHaiti as a poor person with no chances for a real life.
Whos to say that none of us are on our 10th or 30th trip back here ?
What if death is just that, death. Nothingness, like when alseep, nothing. Can anyone remember what life is like before we were born ? Not me for sure.
Just nothing, no conscieness to know anything.
Now what if there is a God, what is this God ? Is this God what different faiths say it is ?
What if life, is no ore than the thoughts of Gods mind, our existence is mearly Gods thoughts.
The list of questions could go on foreever.
It’s about Cause and Effect. If you throw a rock into a lake, ripples will emanate from the center of where the rock pierced the surface.
If you scowl constantly, people will scowl back. If you smile, people will smile back. If you’re nice, people will usually (but not always), be nice in return. Karma is about getting what we deserve, whether it’s good or bad.
It’s impersonal, and it doesn’t really give a shit one way or another. We create our own karma. It’s like natural laws; take gravity for example. Gravity is not hot or cold, mean or kind, it treats everybody/everything the same way. Karma reacts to our choices in a mirrored sort of way, our actions determine the reaction we get. Occasionally the reactions don’t make sense to us because we fail to see the larger picture. We are like butterfly’s with a 2 week lifespan on a thousand year old tree.
Er something like that. I’ve been reading a lot about Buddhism recently. I’m gonna go get a beer. Peace.
Don’t be sad.
If you need benzoes to live kill yourself.
They are drugging me because they are just pieces of shit.
I just want to die fast.
I hate thsese people.
bubbles75, …….. your certainly entitled to feel which ever way you chose.
I have always had good, trusting relationships with Dr.’s. I have none of the obvious malfeelings towards medicines and or the proffessions that “Help” hundreds of millions of peoples that are greatful for the Dr.’s and mes that have made their lives better, and even helped them become happy productive members of this world.
There are always exceptions to the medical/psychiatric patients that do not get better.
I was once in a hospital with a severe back issue, I told the Dr. I was an addict, (big fucking mistake) I was doubled over in pain.
The nurse came in with the biggest dam needle I ever saw, I aske what it was (expecting morphine or dilaudid), she said Toradol, …………. I gaspt and said that ain’t gonna work !
On a scale on 1 to 10 my pain was a 15.
She said ok turned around as she walked out and said as long as you think like that nothing would work……………… I stopped her and said OK!!!! I took the shot, and no it didn’t work for 25 minutes, yet it did relileve some pain down to a 8.
As long as people have a mind set “It isn’t going to work” its not.
Your attutude in “All” your post are angry anti med posts, ………….. give other the chance to recieve help from meds that work for hundreds of millions of people instead of being a jerk and inflicting harm to others because you haven’t gotten better. Your anti meds words are and can cause harm to others.
Some people are just too fucked up to accept the help that available.