The dictionary states that to be alone is to be separate, apart, or isolated from others. I find this very untrue. Here I sit across the hall from my sister, down the hall from my parents, on the phone with my friend and yet I am still alone. Alone does not mean you are isolated from others physically, it means you are isolated from other mentally. In my mind I have no one to talk to about anything because I am alone. I have no friends and no one that cares. Everyday I walk into school I’m surrounded by hundreds of people and I still feel alone. A very common question is ” How can one feel so alone when there are 7 billion people on this earth?” Well people can feel alone when they have so many problems and no one to listen to them. A person can feel alone when they are stuck in their room crying there eyes. A person can feel alone when they cut themselves and drink. People like me feel alone all the time. Mostly because I am alone. I know that no matter how many times I cut myself it wont matter because no one cares, it wont a difference if I do it a thousand times because no one is there for me. I know that if I’m so broken down and I try to call some one they wont answer. I know that if I died no one would miss me. I am alone in this world. Alone and unneeded. Alone and unwanted. The definition of alone is me. No one even knows I exist. People want to forget me. No one wants to know me. No one wants me. Any one who has a friend wont get this. No one understands how it feels to be at rock bottom and have no one to help at all. To have hundreds of cuts on my legs and wrist and no one to tell about it. To be drinking every night and have no one to tell about it. To have all this stuff in my life pressuring me and no one to help me deal with it. No one. No fucking one wants to deal with my problems because I am nothing, I am no one. I am alone.
I am alone in this world. Alone and unneeded. Alone and unwanted. Alone and gone.
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i feel the same way. Im in a room right now with my mom and i already feel myself strangling myself. But she doesnt see that. I always feel alone. No one is here cause they are gone.
I know that feeling well to. I feel more alone in a group of people than I do when I’m alone in my room. It’s remarkable how easy it is to hide things from others, and how willing they are to believe your mask
I don’t mean to sound cliche or anything, but you are not alone here and we do want to hear what you have to say.
If you ever want to share more we would be happy to listen.
I know what you mean. I am the most alone when I am with people and my mind drifts away to where I feel safe where I am harming myself or on a deserted island. There are people around who say they care but it feels like a big sham and sometimes they pretend to care if they see the scars but later they ignore you.