My Beautiful Life..!!love it!!:-)))))

On a very crazy wednesday evening after our usual verbal war i decided to go out and grab a cup of coffee. I waited for his call at the coffee shop…but it never came.

Stan and I met over the net.He was my senior back at college.From the very first day of our chat,there was something that told me he is different…After a couple of chat sessions we started talking over the phone…..AND hell yes!!he was different from the rest of the men i knew…well thats how u feel when you know inside that you are falling for some one…

I was into major depression those days due to various reasons….and stan’s presence made me feel better.He was supportive,encouraging,caring and comforting…!We fell in love!!!

Our relationship was like those fairy tales…..so perfect that you would doubt whether its real.The “made for each other” concept finally made sense to me then.I was truly madly and deeply in love with Stan….Everything went fine till stan announced that he wants to get married to me immedietely.I am just 22 and it caught me by suprise…But at that point nothing was more important to me than Stan and I agreed to it….it created a war scene back at my home…and my parents were totally unwilling….On the other hand Stan’s parents wanted him to get married ASAP…They say “Blood is thicker than wine” and trust me its true….our arguments started getting dirty and only question left unanswered was when is it gonna end?

One day Stan calls up to let me know that he is proceeding with his marriage plans.We met the next day,a wednesday…..Blamed each other for all that happend and i got out to grab a cup of coffee….i waited for his call at the coffee shop…..i waited for hours and hours and finally called him…

The Stan i spoke to then was a different man….he showered me with abuses…he blamed me for totally unrelated and unwanted shit….the call went on for an hour….he was the only one talking and it was not gud..his closing statement was “i’m breaking up with you” and that still echoes in my head..

That moment,my friends i thought i have lost everything.I didnt think about my parents who fostered me all this while,my friends,my relatives….none!!I concluded that without Stan there is no life and hence i decided to end it.

I took tablets…my mother found it out and i was rushed to the hospital….In the emergency care unit all i could hear was my mother weep….after hours of struggle with the gastro intestinal tube the doctors announced that i m safe!I was moved to the critical care unit…I spent my next two days in the ccu…totally cut out from the outside world

I had 7 tubes running up and down in my body,2 different liquids were pumped into my body from huge plastic bottles,i cudnt move,talk or even breathe properly.I could hear my nurse explaining the suicide  incident to every doctor walking into the unit to ckeck on me.I felt disgusted..

Those 2 days Changed my life…i realized how invaluable the gift of life is…you will only realize the value of life when you are about to loose it..when i was admitted to the hospital,my only prayer was to bring me back to life…i m one of those lucky ones who survived the incident without any major loss..i am perfectly alright now…but the case could have been different and on frank terms FATAL…

Life is the most precious gift that we have…there is no problem without a solution….it is designed that way….trust me when i say that..whatever you are facing today is just temporary….better days are ahead…we hear these stuff every now and then but what we fail to do is to have  faith in it…anything is possible….how much ever bad your “today” is ….tomorrow is going to be a better day…you should appreciate and acknowledge the gift of life and make maximum use of it…talk to your closed ones about what you are going through…do what makes you happy and only that…

I am a very person today..throughout my life i was dependant,insecure and emotional…..today i look forward to my future with expectation,hope and faith…..its very important to have faith in something or someone…it can what we call GOD,super natural power,a close friend,your mother,father..anyone….but have faith in some one….and more importantly have faith in yourself…you are this wonderful creation only meant to lead a happy life….acknoledge that fact and move ahead…..Remember,life is the best gift that u have received and please dont ignore it….!TRUST ME….ALL THE BEST!