Last night I tried to kill myself. It was silent and it was sad. I wrote no letters explaining why or apologizing. I only signed goodbye on a pink scrap of paper, opened the pills, shoved them down my throat, and sighed. Then I sat and waited for Death. I wanted to greet him with a smile, take his hand, and murmur my thanks for coming so swiftly. Instead Sleep came first, a blissful cover for me to slip away. Because I doubted I could meet Death without trembling. So Sleep wrapped me in her arms and held me close.
It seems as though Sleep protected me too well, for Death has passed me by. I woke to a room more empty than I had left it and a World more bleak.
I cursed Death, “I asked you to come, I begged you to take me away. I’m so tired of this broken World – all the fighting, and the pain, and the hate. Please, just take me away from here.”
But there was no answer from Death, he was silent and cold; just as Death would be.
So I turned my back to Death and instead look to Life. It stood simply and waited for me to speak. We stayed like that for many hours until I whispered,
“What can you promise me?â€
And Life replied, softly first but then with more power until it’s voice shook my soul.
“Promise? I am a Promise. I can make you no promises of love and joy. Nor of peace, nor easy, nor simple. I am Life. I am what you make of me. Take me, mold me. Squeeze every drop of me into you. I will give you breathe and I will make your heart beat. I will be difficult and there is no promise that it will be easier. But I give you a chance to create something better from where there was nothing. I am yours. I am Life.â€
At these words, I embraced Life and took it by the hand. Together we walked away from Death and I learned to trust Life again.
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So did you and life get it on later that night?
dear crazy coloured rainbow…please excuse my ignorance…what beautiful prose…not sure if it is art or merely a cry for help
i might be crazy…..but have you just experienced an NDE….if so might be able to help a little….just saying….waiting
It was perfect, it is perfect, it will be perfect as you are perfect
Namaste
Amakua
just reread your post ….couldn’t quite take it all in at one time…awesome….welcome back to the light….nice to meet you
Peace
All joking aside It is very well written and shows a clear line between life and death.
Beautiful
that happened to me, i tried the same way, and woke up alive, but i didnt get that feeling in one day, its slowly manifested itself in me over the past 6 months. im so glad u r ok, and better, mabey happy soon. after going through this website it is a rare sight to see something liike this. it really is a sign of hope, thanks for sharing