I’m not sure what I’m doing here. All I know is today I feel really bad. I feel like an empty shell just living life as a robot. I am afraid of the darkness yet I want it to engulf me, I just want the pain to end.  It’s been so long living with heartache and the bad memories. I just feel like I want it all to end I’m so tired, so tired I just can’t out of this hole. I pray I can overcome this but I never can. I just it want it all to end just go into the darkness and dissapear.
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I’m in a similar situation. I get these massive headaches, where the pain is always loccated behind my left eye. My friends are constantly telling me to go to a doctor to get it checked out, but I have yet to go.
I may be a pessimist (or an optimist, depending on your perspective) but I can’t shake the feeling that it’s *something* that will eventually kill me.
Although I must say, surely wanting to die (and perhaps acting on those thoughts) is different than being told you have no choice in the matter.