Do you leave a suicide note beside you? A delayed email to friends and family? A delayed Tweets perhaps? Something to stop people thinking you’re so “selfish” and explain your problems..
well it is a long process, i personally like a few notes (do keep in mind, if you live with loved ones they may find it), but it’s really what you find will speak most to your loved ones. I’ve always imagined mine with my notes just on my desk, and a small fun video on my phone, to make em laugh a lil (with whats on the video). Tell us your story though, we’d like to hear it!
Well I live with my father whom I don’t get on with. He’ll be happy when I’m gone and he never shows much emotion so I imagine he’d bin any note I leave behind after reading less than the opening sentence. I’d like to leave a package to my closest friend (who went to leave abroad after uni) with directions for my father to post but he cannot be trusted to post such thing. I may send a delayed email instead (just the thought of an email appearing in my inbox from my best friend would be a bit scary that’s all. I wouldn’t want to treat her the same way). I am lost but I must leave this world.
ahhhh a cry in the night…..welcome Becks….nice to meet ya…
quick question….what is soooo bad you want to die???
we all got em
your secrets are relatively safe with us….lol
all kidding aside….stick around….talk….listen….learn whatever….it is a great place here for the most part….
the real problem is not the notice….it remains the loss ….of you…..but if it’s that bad….we will understand….unfortunately most of us will try to talk you up….but we will still understand…..write away….you can always delete your own post later if you like….like i said….relatively safe….don’t use your real name and info unless you need to for some reason….other than that …welcome
if we can’t talk you up….maybe someone here will post the package for you….who knows….ask….see what happens…
I see, do you have any other family or close friends? Also, how long have you felt that you must leave this world?, just recently? years? Hmm, I’d also like to add that there is a chance your father just grew up with a distant father as well and has NO clue how to nor how to help you even if he wanted to help! It may also be that he is hard on you for that same reason, sometimes fathers think that’s how they can help their child. I don’t know enough of your situation to know this though nor give much more for suggestions! Do share more if you wish!!
Namaste: Believe me, I’ve learned a lot in my life. To answer your question though, my body aches (I could quite literally name any part and it has some problem without exaggerating), my health is poor, I have debts, I don’t get on with my family, I don’t have any close friends, work is a dead-end job with no prospects, I am ‘old’ and still live with my father. Did I mention my health is bad? The world is better off without me. I do not want to see another day.
crewde: No other close friends. No contact with any other family. Yes, you’re right. My father did not get on with his father. But me not speaking to mine does not have any affect on my decision.
How long? I’ve had 4 failed suicide attempts over a decade. With each year another part of my body begins to fail and my body constantly hurts more. I’ve had a constant migraine alone for the past week now and the painkillers dont work. That’s just a tiny part of my problems.
Hmm, that is quite the situation. I have known 1 person in my life with many similarities. As it so happens, it was a ex GF. One thing i found that really helped her was to TRY to be active, if you can join a club or any type of activity you enjoy it will help with not only the pain, but also clear your mind. (my ex was on about 15 different medications before i trained her at the gym, and took classes with her, now only has 2). It would also be an opportune time to meet new people, possibly get another close friend. Through my life experience, medication seems to be only ever a temporary way out of pain, and although it may be hard, you must start getting active. Just try it, try a class you think you’ll like. While this may not be what you want to hear, what do you have to lose? Suicide in my opinion should only occur after exhausting every single last option (even if its very hard to try). I personally believe you can get through this. ( i would also like to say, the only thing getting me by right now is this website and going to the gym daily)
how old are you Becks???…..i am 50 myself….7 suicide attempts….7 NDES….more pain than you can shake a stick at…..what got me on this site….was when i lost the use of my arm just over a month ago….been working really hard on site….with a psych…and a chiro…..getting better every day….maybe a glimmer of hope?
I was given less than 6 months in December 2000…what year is it now???…ohyeah….do i seem dead to you????…lol…effin’ doctors….that unfortunately is my favourite rant….would suggest the Anita Moorjani videos…you can google her name….tired of mediation…lol…or maybe if you run across softsoul he can hook you up…he hooked me up for sure…..
so do tell….what have you learned…would you like to share?
any NDE’s with your attempts?
I stopped writting letters my mum has 13!!!i guess she can pick one i dont plan to leave anything just an empty phone with the history amd sites ive visited deleted they can have the photos no harm there cept the last pic is me sitting on a cliff on a boulder thinking bout jumping maybe i will delete that one
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well it is a long process, i personally like a few notes (do keep in mind, if you live with loved ones they may find it), but it’s really what you find will speak most to your loved ones. I’ve always imagined mine with my notes just on my desk, and a small fun video on my phone, to make em laugh a lil (with whats on the video). Tell us your story though, we’d like to hear it!
Well I live with my father whom I don’t get on with. He’ll be happy when I’m gone and he never shows much emotion so I imagine he’d bin any note I leave behind after reading less than the opening sentence. I’d like to leave a package to my closest friend (who went to leave abroad after uni) with directions for my father to post but he cannot be trusted to post such thing. I may send a delayed email instead (just the thought of an email appearing in my inbox from my best friend would be a bit scary that’s all. I wouldn’t want to treat her the same way). I am lost but I must leave this world.
ahhhh a cry in the night…..welcome Becks….nice to meet ya…
quick question….what is soooo bad you want to die???
we all got em
your secrets are relatively safe with us….lol
all kidding aside….stick around….talk….listen….learn whatever….it is a great place here for the most part….
the real problem is not the notice….it remains the loss ….of you…..but if it’s that bad….we will understand….unfortunately most of us will try to talk you up….but we will still understand…..write away….you can always delete your own post later if you like….like i said….relatively safe….don’t use your real name and info unless you need to for some reason….other than that …welcome
if we can’t talk you up….maybe someone here will post the package for you….who knows….ask….see what happens…
Namaste
I see, do you have any other family or close friends? Also, how long have you felt that you must leave this world?, just recently? years? Hmm, I’d also like to add that there is a chance your father just grew up with a distant father as well and has NO clue how to nor how to help you even if he wanted to help! It may also be that he is hard on you for that same reason, sometimes fathers think that’s how they can help their child. I don’t know enough of your situation to know this though nor give much more for suggestions! Do share more if you wish!!
Namaste: Believe me, I’ve learned a lot in my life. To answer your question though, my body aches (I could quite literally name any part and it has some problem without exaggerating), my health is poor, I have debts, I don’t get on with my family, I don’t have any close friends, work is a dead-end job with no prospects, I am ‘old’ and still live with my father. Did I mention my health is bad? The world is better off without me. I do not want to see another day.
crewde: No other close friends. No contact with any other family. Yes, you’re right. My father did not get on with his father. But me not speaking to mine does not have any affect on my decision.
How long? I’ve had 4 failed suicide attempts over a decade. With each year another part of my body begins to fail and my body constantly hurts more. I’ve had a constant migraine alone for the past week now and the painkillers dont work. That’s just a tiny part of my problems.
Hmm, that is quite the situation. I have known 1 person in my life with many similarities. As it so happens, it was a ex GF. One thing i found that really helped her was to TRY to be active, if you can join a club or any type of activity you enjoy it will help with not only the pain, but also clear your mind. (my ex was on about 15 different medications before i trained her at the gym, and took classes with her, now only has 2). It would also be an opportune time to meet new people, possibly get another close friend. Through my life experience, medication seems to be only ever a temporary way out of pain, and although it may be hard, you must start getting active. Just try it, try a class you think you’ll like. While this may not be what you want to hear, what do you have to lose? Suicide in my opinion should only occur after exhausting every single last option (even if its very hard to try). I personally believe you can get through this. ( i would also like to say, the only thing getting me by right now is this website and going to the gym daily)
how old are you Becks???…..i am 50 myself….7 suicide attempts….7 NDES….more pain than you can shake a stick at…..what got me on this site….was when i lost the use of my arm just over a month ago….been working really hard on site….with a psych…and a chiro…..getting better every day….maybe a glimmer of hope?
I was given less than 6 months in December 2000…what year is it now???…ohyeah….do i seem dead to you????…lol…effin’ doctors….that unfortunately is my favourite rant….would suggest the Anita Moorjani videos…you can google her name….tired of mediation…lol…or maybe if you run across softsoul he can hook you up…he hooked me up for sure…..
so do tell….what have you learned…would you like to share?
any NDE’s with your attempts?
it’s all good
Namaste
I stopped writting letters my mum has 13!!!i guess she can pick one i dont plan to leave anything just an empty phone with the history amd sites ive visited deleted they can have the photos no harm there cept the last pic is me sitting on a cliff on a boulder thinking bout jumping maybe i will delete that one