i want to write more, explore a little more, find out more about whats going on inside of me at the moment and what i can do to help myself but my dad just got out of bed and kind of yelled at me from downstairs for being up this late (its 12:12am in houston). classes just started and he thinks i’m wasting my time on facebook. he thinks i’m doing what i always do- that is, doing whatever i do that causes me in the end to drop my classes and waste time and money and life.
i hope this website helps me. i hope i can connect with some of you in a real way. Â i hope i become more strategic about studying and spending my time and doing good things for myself and finding purpose to my life. Â again, i hope to be able to connect with you guys with more than just a comment here or there. maybe a phone call or something even though that sounds kind of stalkerish or whatever. Â answers are out there. Â there are answers out there for your situation, for my situation. Â i pray we find them before its too late. Â goodnight everyone
-Mohannad
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You can post about anything and everything. Whatever you’d like to get off your chest, however you like. But I see you got that down.
Many people have the problem of a past that doesn’t want to let go of them – letting it haunt them. You’re not alone that. As many people have posted around here have said: We’re human, we make mistakes, we’re not perfect. You need not be so hard on yourself. The past may be an annoying part of our life, but you need to learn to learn from and forget it. I know it’s easier said than done, but it’s something to work for. Live for the present and create goals for future.
Why do you feel you’re a failure at all those things? School? We all have problems with it,I don’t think many like it – and sound like you have focus and procrastination problems. I think you need to find a way to motivate yourself, to have yourself focus on school if that’s really what you want to do and accomplish. Faith? How do you mean? Are you losing faith in your muslim beliefs? I can’t comment much on this since I’m not religious, but I’d say try to reexamine your beliefs. Social? Well lot’s of people have trouble getting out there. It isn’t something to jump into, and I’d call it more of a process into getting socially successful. And are you saying you’re quiet around the people at work or THEY are quiet around you?
I don’t think it’s too good to compare yourself to others. We’re all different people. All have our own paces, etc. etc. Try changing your mindset, you ARE going to do something – to really try at it. I don’t mean to sound rude or something, but you’ve got to get out there and DO – even though it may not be easy. What do you think is holding you back from it all?
Well I hope you write more, and explore those feelings. I hope you can connect, and I hope you can get through those classes okay. That you find some answers.
Anyhow, I wish you luck and hope to see you around. (Hoped I helped a bit too, if not hope someone else can comment and give some better advice)
I’m glad you found this site. I just did a few days ago. I have gotten some great responses from people. Of course no one has the magic fix, but it can help to know what other people are thinking.
I have a few similarities with your story. I found your line “why did I waste so much damn time” very poignant. I am close to your age, 25, and I ask myself the same question. To older people it might seem silly because we are still so young in the grand scheme of things. However, it is difficult soemtimes to fight the feelings that you should have done things differently and that you are on a downward track. Right now I’m fighting the same fight. I become incredibly angry with myself for my choices and wonder if I will ever improve. The important thing to remember is that when things are so bad, it is at least POSSIBLE for them to be better at some point in the future. For now I must go (work in the morning after being snowed in for two days), but feel free to message/comment/whatever works if you would like…
When I first got here, I wasn’t sure anyone was reading these articles other than the next person compelled to post their own. I ran on, at length, more for myself than anyone else. Later, and I “established” my back story, I posted about more immediately emotional things. If someone asks “how did you get here”, I just copy and paste the links to what wrote before. Personally, I’m a bit of a hypocrite, because I post these long-winded, who-the-fuck-is-really-going-to-care articles.
And yet….usually, more often than not, I get a response. Sometimes more than one. Occasionally, a useful insight, but almost always at least a virtual hug.
I’m not close to your age, but hopefully I can still help a tiny bit.