Last week I saw my father die, he was in the hospital bed i was next to him, he started to shake and foam came out of his mouth. Many nurses came in do to the loud beeping from the machine. I stood there and watched as they tried everything, but he was already gone. Hopefully in a better place. I’m only 14 yrs old live with my mother and little sis in a 2 bedroom apartment i sleep on the couch and cry never stopping, i want to see my father so bad I’ve slit my wrist before hoping to die and see him. I’ve been forced to see counselors they do not help. I never got to say goodbye. now im stuck with what to do…
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There are many children who have witnessed the death of a parent so just know your are not alone. I can’t imagine what you must have felt in that moment or even what you feel now. Have you tried confiding in your family for support or perhaps have a favorite teacher you can talk to? I am thinking of you and I wish you find the strength to be strong. The pain may not go away today, tomorrow,or maybe ever. But you can turn that pain into your reason for being strong. Your Father is watching over you and I am sure he wants nothing more than for you to be a happy and fullfilled individual. Let me know if Incan help or if you would like to talk.
Hi Kody, I’m so sorry for your loss!! I can’t imagine how you must feel. I lost my grandma, who was like a mother to me, on Thurs. I know you must be hurting and am so sorry to hear of your loss! Your father would be honored that you grieve deeply for him and would also want you to go on after your time of grieving and pursue your hopes and dreams and live while you are alive. He wants you to have a wonderful. daring , adventurous life. In his memory, honor him and also honor you and all that you have left to explore and experience in this earthly life. Best wishes
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January 29th, 2012 at 2:04 am
Hi Kody, I’m so sorry for your loss!! I can’t imagine how you must feel. I lost my grandma, who was like a mother to me, on Thurs. I know you must be hurting and am so sorry to hear of your loss! Your father would be honored that you grieve deeply for him and would also want you to go on after your time of grieving and pursue your hopes and dreams and live while you are alive. He wants you to have a wonderful. daring , adventurous life. In his memory, honor him and also honor you and all that you have left to explore and experience in this earthly life. Best wishes
I’m so sorry Kody, sweetie…… please hang on there, i wish i was there to hug you dear.
you don’t have to say goodbye. never goodbye, always later. he can still hear you and I’m sure he would want to see you grow up into a beautiful young lady with a bunch of grandchildren to carry on the name. stay away from negative friends. surround yourself with positive people. go to college and become something your father would be proud of. honor his name and he will live forever in your heart.
kody – your father lives on in you, that’s what he wanted. By going on you are carrying his memory, in your genes and in your mind; and when you pass them onto your kids he’ll be immortal. So you can do this for him.