pain

I hate living i wish that my mom.would just let me die already ive been suffering for years now and she seems not to care she avoids the situation until i try something then thats when she notice i need more help then what shes giving.but the truth is i dont want.anyones help i just want to be left aline so that i could just die by myself what so hard about that you know i prayed and prayed that this world would end in 2012 like is was supose to but i guess i didnt prey hard enough because here i am writing another suicied letter i think i should judt run away and then kill myself then maybe it wouldnt hurt so bad and my mom want have to be the one to find me maybe i should just wash down alot of pills and just sit around and wait to die why is it so important or me.to live anyway i shouldnt be forced to do anything i dont.want.to do my mom should just suport me and let me die life for mme would be sooo much better