Parents

Today I realized how strange my parents treat me, my dad is over protective and paranoied ever since his brother died of an overdose and yet he abuses me both emotionaly and phisicaly, my momther says if she had to chose between me and my father she would always chose me and yet she stands by and watches me suffer. Both of my parents are are paranoied like I said earlier about things like me doing drugs, drinking, or cutting myself and yet when my scars from the years of cutting are showing, they pretend not to see them or they buy my lame excuses. I just don’t know whether or not to beleive that my mother loves me and I don’t know whether my dad hates me as much as I feel that he does. The irony of it all is that they are they main reason that I do all the things they dread me doing. I just don’t understand what I did to deserve this sort of shit.