okay so this year was my 1 year as  a freashman. goin in to a couple weeks it was goin fine .then one day it all started in my stomach. my stomach would make wierd noises like was hungry .so stopped comming to school i would miss almost eveeyday because of my stomach. then my mom took me to the doctors to see what i had i would tell them my stomach hurts then they found out i had anxiety(social anxiety).they made me go back to school,i would cry and pretty much had a mental breakdown every morinin because i didnt wanna go to schoolthe . so when i started going back to school i would freak out . the office assigned me a family counsler .she really helps me when we first met i looked at here like help me and she just looked atme back like i knoo. we still talk but shes prego her due date is next month so they told me another girl would help me every tuesday (1 a week ),i was kinda scared  but i have met here and she has anxiety so we will see . oh also i forgot to say ukno how i have been absent soo many times i havent gotten that much credits and my school counsler told me yesterday that if u dont pass ur classes  ur not gonna be a sophmore in that moment i felt like cryin and i have to go to summer school and they told me if i keeep missing school shes gonna have to pay 1,000 fee . i feel hopeless because everyday im so stressed trust me home is the worst ,also when i was absent alot and would go the next day to school  alll my friends would be like y arnt u here ur neverhere  and if i miss one day they would be like omg ur grade gonna stink (like i dont kno that ) everyday they come up to me and say are u goiing home early  in my head i would be like just sushh for a second. so yeah this is my story my anxiety is still goin on everyday i cant be in a quite place or eelse i cry  but now im tryin everyday in my gut to go to school everyday do all my classwork im hoping i get to be a sophmore  wish me luck and thanks  ..
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I have general/social anxiety, and most days it is a battle just to leave the house. What helps me is making sure that I am very prepared to leave; that means every little thing that I can find wrong with what I need to do or have (like my appearance, my posessions, etc) is take care of before I even think about going anywhere. This means getting up super early to shower and triple check to see if there’s deodorant on on my shirt, and that I have my wallet, and that my phone is, in fact, fully charged; so be it.
Also, before you leave, think about what it is that freaks you out about school. I hated going to school in the morning too, I hardly ever was on time, and my senior year I missed 68 days! I only graduated because my mom and my psychologist got together and petitioned the principal. Don’t worry! If your school is responsible for your counseling sessions that means they know you have a problem and that you are doing your best; even if that means you have to go to summer school you will graduate as long as you try hard and follow the plan your school gives you.
So what freaks you out about going to school. What bothered me the most was not feeling fully prepared to leave in the morning because we had to be there so early and I always over slept. Also, I would freak about the people I had to go to class with everyday. They would make me feel angry, and annoyed, and most of all, incredibly JUDGED. But really, (and no offense) what can a 14 year old really do to you and your life? Most of the things 14 year olds say are just not-thought-through observations about their immediate surroundings, and regurgitated opinions on the world. So you show up late after missing a few days, and they say, “hey you’re missing alot of class. that’s bad.” Boom, careless observation followed by careless statement of moral standing on the issue.
Don’t worry about it. My freshman year is so far behind me now (I’m 21 now) that I can barely remember anything that happened. You seem like you know what you have to do, just remember that as long as you can keep fighting, you should keep fighting