So as I am sitting here thinking about all the crap I have in storage, I realize it is a lot of my childhood memories. Stuff I always dreamed I would someday have a kid of my own to give it all to. As I realize that this will never actually happen, I start to decide to give away my past, good or bad. So then I start thinking about the other stuff I own, and since I have been bouncing around between friends’s houses with no place really to call home, and no job in sight, I know I can’t get much by selling it, so I consider giving that away too. Then I happened to be playing Xbox 360 after deciding all of this. My Xbox and my new HP laptop are probably the things I cherish most right now, and I actually asked my ex gf, the love of my life, if she wanted them. I am finding as time goes on I want little and feel I deserve even less. I am in a situation which could either go good or bad, and I am starting to think I should go out in a cornfield and just finish it.
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Hi Siren,
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with getting rid of clutter or asking yourself whether you really need certain items. I think most of us in the western world (I’m assuming that’s where you are) have way more things than we actually need.
I’ve spent the last three years gradually getting rid of most of my things, and even the stuff I have left is under constant review. I actually feel a lot better for it. I try to keep only one of each thing I need, whereas previously I’d end up with three or four mp3 players and several consoles etc. I find I appreciate what I have a lot more now and I use what I have more, because it’s all I have.
Don’t give away everything, though. Keep your laptop and your Xbox if you use them often and gain something from them. And also remember, while an Xbox can be replaced if you later change your mind (I’ve had to buy some things back that I got rid of!) the more personal items from your childhood etc. cannot be replaced – so give a lot more thought to those before you decide to part with them.