I may seem like I have a lot, but I don’t. hear me out…
There’s these two guys(we’ll call them Thing 1 and thing 2). Thing 1 and I met about a year and a half ago. When we met, I was dating this guy. We broke up, and I eventually fell for Thing 1. We almost went out, and over the course of the next year were really close and almost going out. We still are. But, this winter, Thing 2 came a long and moved in to our school. While I still liked Thing 1, I also REALLY liked Thing 2. Me and thing 2 almost went out as well- we held hands, he kissed me on the cheek. Thing 1 and Thing 2 were also good friends. There was another guy (we’ll call him WW). WW was friends with me, thing 1 and thing 2. He found out about me and thing 2 (we were hiding it from thing 1). He told Thing 1. Thing  1 got sort of mad, but forgave me. Anyway, I’ve been debating about who to go out with. Whoever I don’t pick will be heartbroken. And also theres this girl (we’ll call her RR). Shes my best friend, but likes thing 2. She doesnt know about us though… however tonight she and thing 2 ACCIDENTALLY started going out, he tried to say something about going out but it came out wrong. Now he says he might give going out a try so i wont have to pick. I think i love him but I don’t know what to do. I might tell him i love him…I don’t know 🙁
Also my parents fight, and my brother is abusive and i feel like no one gets me. Those are the things that sometimes make me want to die… like right now.
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Sorry pleasehelp,
I don’t think I can do that…help I mean…I couldn’t even understand what you were asking for…can you be more clear…and skip the whole Thing 1 and Thing 2 thing…lol…it only makes sense to you my dear. So if there is a genuine cry for help in there somewhere…I couldn’t find it…sounded more like you should be writing to an advice column for the lovelorn and storybook obsessed. You don’t say…but this sounds kinda junior high school to me…not that that makes your question any less important…but explains why I don’t understand it…I’ve only been reading English for 50 years now…lmao. And they quit teaching it in the schools almost 30 years ago…lol.
All kidding aside…if you need help…we are here…but please be more clear what kind of help you are looking for.
Namaste
Amakua
If you’re so inclined I’d suggest checking out clips on youtube by a guy who pioneered family systems theory. His name is John Bradshaw and the clips are called Homecoming.
You need to learn to cultivate self esteem and unconditional love and appreciation for yourself. It’s supposed to happen as you are brought up but if there’s disharmony in your household then it creates a rift in you. Take care.