Is it really ‘pain’ that brings about the desire to kill yourself? I’m not in pain. But I’m not happy either – I feel almost nothing at all, I just think. And my thoughts don’t make sense. It’s just numbness, and sometimes anxiety. Nothing at all or crippling fear and self-hatred. Life is just not coherent. Why is anybody bothering to stay?
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hi, Dormirecupio… In general, I don’t think it takes pain or anything specific. You wrote that you’re not happy. Are there things you can do to make yourself happy? I know you said that your thoughts don’t make sense… What do you think about? What makes you anxious? It’s possible to work on what makes you anxious… so that when those things happen, you have a plan.
I haven’t been happy since my boyfriend left. I’ve just been working on being ‘okay’. But I don’t feel comfortable talking to my family and my dwindling friends about anything negative. As for the anxiety, I think I’m just afraid of the pain I remember from the last time I was hurt.
Everyone has rainy days. Your family/friends are with you in rain or shine as long as you let them. Slowly allow yourself to open up what worries you.
Thank you. I’m looking at taking anxiety meds at the moment, it’s getting so bad that I get stress headaches and end up in tears almost daily.
I am feeling the same way. My thoughts are never coherent and my conversations with other people usually don’t get really far. I think though, that by writing on this website, you can make sense of what’s going on and hopefully we can all find hope.
Thanks, I hope writing here can make a difference. And I hope you’re okay, too.
Hey buddy anxiety is a real bastard,I’ve been on anxiety meds for over a year I just kicked them to the curbside and I’m doing fine you will too it just takes time.sometimes you do feel numb part of that is the drugs unfortunatly.I’m glad you’re not feeling too bad just numb is better than wanting to end things so that’s better than nothing..so what you got is anxiety and numbness,try and be with people or around others even it will help you feel more.other people have an effect on how we feel..do you want to feel better?try and create a space for yourself where you feel safe or just not alone..try and share your feelings with us it will help you connect and feel better or different which is better than nothing at all.remember anxiety is a state of mind you can choose to feel different you just have to try..good luck my friend keep writing it helps xxxx