I’m cutting right now.
I can’t get myself to stop
Even typing doesn’t stop me, or talking to all of you.
My endocrinologist handed me a four month supply of synthroid. Â It has taken all my strength not to down it.
Somehow I’m still here.
The pills were hidden.
All I want to do is find them.
And take them.
I’ll go crazy until I find them….And then nothing
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I know how you feel…please..just think. Do what i do when i cant stop. Stare at the blood when it runs down your arm or leg..watching the blood sooths me sometimes and then and only then am i able to stop. Take a deep breath. I just want to remind you that its not so bad, its not so bad at all.
I WANT TO FIND THOSE PILLS!!!!
Sounds like a very painful way to go.
please don’t give in! i know it’s so hard.when i was in my darkest point of my ed,i felt like that,just desperate to make it stop,but i thought of my mom who died for me,and my family,and that there will be good things again, joy. i still have waves of that panic and emotion sometimes,but it’s not as often,and I know I can get through it because i have before.(kinda like today…it was pretty bad)but we’re here for you. please don’t give up,and please don’t leave us. we need you too.