So i havnt been on here in awhile but i need some advice really bad so me and my brother just got into a fight and he threw up in my face how i had to keep swiching school due to bullys and how i tried to kill myself andi didnt cry in front of him but now that im alone i cant stop i mean how could you say that to someone and now im feeling very suicidal i just cant take it in this house anymore and i want out not only this house but this life idk what to do i need help and im not going to no hospital thats out of the question if i try this time im going to make sure i succed
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Hey honey… you were doing really good there for a while. And this is just a rough patch. You’re brother is angry so he’s lashing out… try not to take it personally. I thought the last hospital stay did you some good…? Maybe it’s not such a bad idea to go back for a while, get out of the house for a bit?
Your brother is having a small case of the stupid! He probably regrets what he said. We all make mistakes when fighting because in the heat of the moment, you can’t think strait. When my older brother tore up my precious expensive (that I paid for) backpack in front of me I pulled the kitchen knife on him (which I regret because that must have hurt him, seeing my rejection). Relationships are more important those material things…. Sigh. Anyway, seeing his precious brother (you) miserable enough to try to kill himself must have really hurt him. You guys need to talk it out. The stronger one apologizes first! I’m sure his is worried about you and frustrated with the situation. Before you decided to try again, I suggest you try to be a little stronger. If people are bullying you no matter where you go, it is because you look vulnerable (or hanging with the wrong crowd). Hang with the smart kids; they know that bullying is a stupid way to waste time and not productive at all. When people hurt you, smile and don’t retaliate. Show them that you are above their shenanigans. I could suggest ways to build up your confidence, but different things work for different people. Do what is best for you.
you need to escape into your head. I want you to get the book, 4 hour work week and start designing your life once you are away from all those asssholes. I was beat up and picked on and tortured thoughout my life and what I did was at 19 I came to Dallas from Seattle and made so much money, success, and happiness that when i reconnected with all those asses via social networking, they were all BEGGING to know why I was special how I did it, ect. … How i did it was i took the hatred that they bestowed upon me and used it as fuel to escape and make them look like losers the rest of their life.
Pain is what it takes for action. Action in the right way will make them want to be on this site instead of you. Design your life from wherever it is that you would love to be and work backwards as if you create a blueprint. Keep it vague and piece together your new you. Until then stay strong, hold on, and get the f~k out and make them all sorry!