I really really reallly don’t know what to do anymore, I can’t handle my emotions. whhhhy do i have to be such a failure in life, no matter what i do or who i meet, it never changes anything i  feel. It honestly become a burden, to freinds and family. I feel bad being such a mope, but that only because i’m dying more each and every day. and this pain, that holds me down, just never goes away.
I talk to people, and they all seem to relate in some way, I was talking with one of my new friends and they telling me, how they’ve been depressed and on pills and shit and it all going to get better , with problems around u will fade, but the problems aren’t around me, it is me. it the taking to people, the connection, i don’t want to live this life alone, but it all i no, everyone around me just dissapoints , I can just see through them it all an act, or some time theyll be real, but being real suxxx, these thoughts are to real, i had too push them away most of the time i’m not thinking of anything cause i rather shut my mind off completely and be brain dead, then go on a rampage to self destruct.
i really mean those word, when I say ” I don’t want to do this anymore”
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I don’t either. I have good days but today isn’t one of them and I know exactly what you mean. Everyone is so fake and they pretend to care but they’re just trying to get something from you.
yeahh self satisfaction , human crave attention, and they linger to what give them the most.
I don’t thing a person would nomal get mad at these things between friends and stuff, leaving and forget what once was and the words they mean’t nothing last forever, so im really tired of starting thing that i can’t finish. life one dead end book,n all i have to write is escaping.