that’s never something that i could say about myself, because i’m so far down into the suicidal pit that i feel that there is no way out. if you’ve ever been here (and i’m sure that most of you have), how did you pull yourself back out? i don’t even know if it’s possible to do, for myself, anyway. but for those of you who had that unreal emotion called ‘hope’, if you had it, hang on to it! and if you still have ‘hope’, please do not ever, ever let it go. i don’t know what hope feels like, and may not even recognize it if it ever comes my way, but if you have it, let it give you some strength, ANY strength you may need.
you are stronger than you realize.
xo.
p.
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p, I know what it’s like to be far down that suicidal tube. While some days are a bit better than others, it is a frequent struggle. I try to remember the good times and stay aware that there are some items on my to-do list that I haven’t yet done. Prayer is part of it. You are also stronger than you realize. I hope you find that strength and move forward by leaps and bounds.
ppl tell us we are strong wen we really are not …told that my whole life ,now I hate the person who pounded that into my head for her own needs…..
maibri…. I truly believe that there is often a source of untapped strength within… Several times, when things looked pretty bad, I found some strength to move forward. I think many of us are more capable than we realize.
p., I think it is amazing that even in a state of suicidal thoughts you are still hoping others have hope. That right there says that you are more than worthy of keeping your life, hold on to it, because to someone out there you are their hope whether they let you know it or not. Everybody means something… look back to when you were perhaps in grade school. What made you smile? Coloring time perhaps? Playing with toy tambourines? Find something that used to amuse you, no matter how silly, and maybe you can remember what it was like…to have light in your life…
Dis~ we have whatever we want, most of the time we just dont feel so……greed IS an enemy…rich ppl are not happy either, mental illness affects all aspects of ppl. some jus hide/deny it…i can “tell” myself im “strong” BUT im not…if we are realistic about ourselves and not let anyone esle tell us otherwise ,i believe we wud be able to learn coping skills that we were not taught at an age wen it was developmentally necessary,BUT since i was not taught these skills i am an old dog trying to learn new tricks saying WTF??????
Maibri,
i think that we’re ALL old dogs trying to learn the ‘new tricks’ that were never given to us or shown to us, and i know that it feels like trying to climb out of a well without any hand-holds to grasp. learning the skills we never had a chance to learn earlier is awfully hard work NOW. can we do it?
we can try, maybe?
o geesh im not sure, obviously…i have climbed so many mountains , u will c that i repeat respect for others, i try to understand others, some of them im in their shoes some of them i am not…can we do it? depends on each of us and what we are capable of doing,/what we want to do… not all of us are able to achieve greats like others, so shud we feel ‘not good’? of course not…ALL of us feel the way we feel, not ALL is socially acceptable, there is so many ‘hidden’ secrets with ppl, at least we have the balls to come here and admit ourselves……SO I AM PROUD OF YOU P AND THAT U R HERE….