My professor once told me that feeling unwanted is the worst thing a human being can experience. I don’t know if he knew that I felt like this everyday of my life and wanted to say that he understands or if it was a mere coincidence.
No one really wants me. They see the Mickey Mouse costume, but not the person inside it.
They only want the character, not the actor.
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this post really hits home with me.:( i developed an eating disorder trying to have control over one thing in my life..it was like the only way i knew how to actually express how i was feeling because on the outside i appeared to be happy/smart/pretty/has it all together/effortless. i couldn’t understand how no one could see how much i was in pain. i guess they weren’t really looking,or just didn’t want to see.
Have you given them a chance to meet the actor… and not the character? I ask from personal experience… There are times I put some walls up… and sometimes I may prevent people from seeing the whole picture. That doesn’t help me in the long run.
I hope that more people can meet -you- and get to know -you-.
I can relate to this. I’m at a point in my life where I feel completely unwanted. But I put in a great effort to hide it, and it’s worked spectacularly well. I hide it, because I don’t want to go back to the mental hospital I was in last year.
I try to show myself, but everyone dismisses it or asks what’s wrong with me and why I’m acting off.
They only accept the character.
If you honestly answered them when they asked why you were acting off, do you think they would be supportive? I’m not suggesting that you tell everything if you’re not comfortable doing that… but if you offered the info you were comfortable with, would they be there for you?
I did.
They told me to toughen up.
I wish they had replied differently… and I hope as you progress through your studies that you meet friends who will accept you for you are. I’m not sure if you participate in sports, clubs, or other activities… but that may be a way to meet new friends. Sometimes it takes meeting a lot of people to find that true friend who will be there for you. I speak from experience on that… There are friends in life… and there are FRIENDS in life.
I can relate with this one as well. I know that “unwanted” feeling all too well. The only people who give me attention are people who want my money (salespeople, etc) or co-workers/business contacts.
Yesterday I reached out to 4 friends and absolutely none of them replied. I think I’m a great friend, always here for them and helpful, but obviously they are not the same to me.
I felt this way during high school .. this is how I became a lonewolf
I know just how you feel.