Attention?

Apparently when I tried killing myself it was for “attention”….u dk what its like what iv been through..I know that I’v put you through so much but what else can I do..I’m hard headed I get mad over everything and its different now with us…Im never guna change Im always guna be suicdal..but I would die for you …I care about no one else but you babe!!!…and even though you don’t wana admit it..I believe I came in between you and your past lover..me and you were best friends and I did like you so much and I’ll never let you go…if you say its over I wont believe you..Im apart of you and attached Im insanly in love with you babe…I knoe deep down inside you feel the same for me and you tell me how i frustrate you but no matter what you still love me <3…my family doesn’t understand how much i feel for you and we both know that always talking about us and they said we wouldnt last but we have lasted and we’ve proved them wrong..I know I may be suicdal but Im for you idk but I just am and even thought I say im change that idk but i just cant babe…but you said it yourself you wont stop me next time if i wanted to end my life already then do it…im scared im guna lose you..im scared whats guna happen in the future if im guna be alive or not…i dont know what else to do..i love you babe i love you i love you!!!…mistakes were made by me i know iv fucked up many times but you hurt me too :/…im watching everyday go by seeing how happy we are and those days where you’re mad at me..just one day..one day i hope we can be together forever ipray to god everday hoping we can be together forever and i would never leave you or anything but i know if you wanted too idk what you would do :(….and sometimes i think your hiding stuff from me but you wouldnt do that to me right? :/