So guess what?!… i’m feeling depressed. :/
Sorry about that, you were probably expecting some great, amazing news from a well loved and appreciated person, instead you got me. And all I do is complain about how much I hate my life when somewhere in the world there is a kid wishing he/she could be me. I don’t deserve this life… I’m just going to fuck it up, and already have. I’m only 15 and have already fucked it up. I should just leave. Either the permanant way or just gather my things and walk out of the door. I don’t want to stay here, really. I want to go. But i have no where to go. If I did I would have left. I need someone to tell me i’m crazy and need to shut the fuck up. What guy would want this? A mentally crazy, fucked up attempted emo who hates life. I’m Meant to be doing artwork right now, but I keep getting distracted. I’m going to make such a great tattooist -_- The thought of school… Makes me want to kill myself. I can’t stand it anymore, my new guild is destroying me, I doubt I would be able to move…. So much stress and anger and hate. Can’t take this anymore…. I don’t know what to do, and no one is going to tell me what to do….I only have a few soloutions in mind and nobody accepts them. I really want an emo boyfriend, Emo guys are so different to other guys…. They have emotions. And most have long hair which i love :3 But they seem the hardest to find… :/
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Also on a random note…. If you have facebook, please like my page. ‘***** please, I’m Squirtle’… Feeling kinda lonely :(.
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No I was hoping for a story like this that I could relate to so I could feel less alone. <3
I feel guily about how i am so miserable with my life (my life is actually good quality but i had to fck it up by being so weird.) I am a loner and I am confused and lost. I can't help but not let the thought go of "how it could be so much better, and different, if only I did this____"
Thank you for sharing.
its ok… Strange. I feel the same.. :/ x
Here it is Okay to complain as others like to hear your struggles and it is a good place to let out your anger and get help.
ha… i am way past getting help now, just complaining…
yes same here just love complaining, I actually am scared of getting help ( i am getting it right now but i hate it) I honestly want to deal with it on my own.
I used to be scared of getting help, now i realize that no one can help me but myself. And i don’t see that happening anytime soon.
Same! I just am to exhausted to deal with it anymore
ive just plateaued and haven’t been doing much but on this site, getting lost in my thoughts
same… and songs.
@Nat-you’re right that only you can help you. It’s impossible to know how to begin and I’m in the same place because I always put others first and they’ve just screwed me over endlessly. However, knowing that you need to rely on yourself only is a huge step in and of itself and you have somewhere to start with that.
I just have to say that emo boys are sometimes not what you expect. i come from this small town and was always longing for an emo bf who would be fucked as me ( with long hair heh) and when i finally moved to a new city ( because of college) i met this emo boy who was incredibly nice and everything. We really clicked and i couldn t believe that someone actually likes me. it didn t last for long though. he fucked me up and i am still trying to forget him. it turned out that he was even more fucked up than i was and trying to find love in every girl that appeared around the corner which was sad. the worst thing is i can t avoid him because we have the same classes together and we share the same group of friends. he is so mean to me now and i hate the fact that i still like him even though he turned out such a selfish and messed up person. just wanted to point out: careful what you wish for 🙁
you sound like me 18 years ago. it gets better until it gets worse. i just signed up for this site if that tells you anything. anyway, people need you, no matter how much of a loner you think you are. people depend on me, so i keep going. just keep going. just try to keep going.
I relate to your posts so much :)x
Nat, you are too hard on yourself.
A person who is truly mentally deranged would not be able to recognize themselves as such.
Your self awareness is testament to your sanity.
As Lucy said emo men may not be the correct match.
Many of them have similar issues and that would only hurt you more.
Now a guy who could understand and accept you for who you are and support you when you are down would be healthier.
That way he could possibly help you to see another side and enjoy life more.
You are too smart and talented to let it go this early.
@emptiness7 Somewhere to start… Thats quite funny.
@LucyMorrison.. Hmm… Always careful about what i wish for… doubt i would be able to get any guy let alone an emo one, who wants a crazy girl?
@lessismore. People don’t need me, if/when i’m gone.. they will find someone else to depend on..
@shockwave.. Really? i havent read any of your posts yet… but i will get around to it… x
@U.N Owen You’re funny, Smart and talented? No. smart, maybe but im ruining school with all of these problems, and mental health doesn’t help -_- And talented? At what?
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The way you write and your thought process shows your intelligence.
” I’m Meant to be doing artwork right now, but I keep getting distracted. I’m going to make such a great tattooist ”
I call that a talent.
a talent? Getting distracted?… :/