I want to be angry. At God. At the people around me. But I can’t. Because I got this idea stuck in my head that every screwed up thing in my life is completely my fault. Damn it! (sorry) Ugh. I just need to calm down. 17 more days. just 17 more days that’s it.17 more days of smiles and lies. No biggie. right? Does anybody wanna talk?? I could really use someone to talk to if you don’t mind
Hope everyone is doing well…..nights can be a pain in the arse to deal with
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Nights are definitely a pain in the ass. Its like I never sleep anymore. I am sorry your having a rough evening. I am sorry you feel everything is all your fault but depression can definitely make you feel that way.
hey,it’s ella. i emailed you. i’m always here to talk,i’ll help in anyway i can. i know what you mean about nights being really rough sometimes.i’ve been having trouble sleeping lately and it makes them seem really long and i’m alone and stuck in my head so depression is worse at night. 17 more days?? 🙁 🙁 please talk to me. i hope you won’t go through with it,you’ve been a really good friend to me,i think you are a really wonderful person.
Ah, sleep. The innocent sleep….I guess we scared the sandman away huh? 🙂
Depression vacuums profusely.
I think I killed the sandman as little as I sleep.
That just made my day/night (whatever). yea well i havent slept unless it was benadryl induced. Go figure we’re all out.
Just wondering Are you a wrestling fan? When you said the word arse it reminded me of shamus of professional wrestling.
Lols not really, but my 12 yr old brother loves wwe so I watch it just so we can have something to talk about.
lol.:) little brothers,i have two,10 and 8. i actually thought arse was kind of a british word…but what do i know?:P
Me too. My 11 year old son loves it. We ordered wrestlemania last week and had a blast. It was nice to get away from reality for a change.
Yea. I actually picked it up from the Artemis fowl series, I think the author’s Irish but i’m not entirely sure.
Yea there was alot of smack talk in my house about wrestle mania (the rock vs cena) lol
i have to go(i’m so sorry!) but i’ll check back first thing in the morning. please keep in contact with us okay? you are in my prayers.
i loved that book series,i’ve forgotten a lot of it though. do you like to read? i’m such a bookworm,total nerd,and proud! lol
bye guys. i’ll talk to you tomorrow k?
i just got your email! keep replying please? i’m really worried about you.:(
Catch ya later ellachristina. Haha yea reading’s a nice little escape. when i can get my mind to focus that long…
did you see the hunger games yet?? k,i’ll talk to you tomorrow,i’m really sorry i have to go.
also,what helps me when i’m really bored is pandora.com. it’s free online radio,and you can pick all kinds of different bands by typing them in and then it suggests other bands you might like to. sometimes listening to music helps me sleep.
My favorite match was undertaker and triple hhh. I realize most of it is fake but it was very entertaining. Its nice just to kick back have a few beers and just watch something totaly silly. That is one way I am trying to get out of my depression. It certainly isnt easy. One day at a time is all I can muster right now but I am still fighting. I hope you continue to fight.
Fight for your son….its not easy growing up without a parent. in my case only an almost non-existing parent but still.
yea that match was pretty sick. haha yea its all fake but they truly did put on a good show. You know those boys were black, blue and several different shades of purple the next mornin’
Hey thanks for talking to me. it really helped calm me down. Hope you guy/gals get some decent rest. night
I find nights to be the best.
Being alone in the dark and all.
It is the daytime with all the noise and people that frightens me.
it seems like the day are getting just as bad as the nights for me. atleast you’ve found peace in some part of the day