I made a promise to two really amazing friends of mine that I wouldn’t cut anymore.. But one of them has been lying to me, and I don’t know what to do now.. I can’t trust her anymore and that kills me because now I want the blade to take away the pain, even though I know it’ll just cause more pain for those around me.. How do I get rid of this? I don’t know what to do.. Please help..
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U only live once, u want to spend that pleasing others, or carying out ur every desire, living for what u want and nothing else?
Procel is 100% right. Don’t live your life for her live it for you. Its a lot better that way. The last year I have been in an unhealthy best friend relationship. She lied and did other things and now she doesn’t want to be my friend and I’m stuck picking up pieces. She just wasn’t the right friend for you but there is someone out here that is.
Ment to ask what started u cutting
I promised that once… It was a difficult type of promise to keep…and sorry to say I broke it.
However, someone told me that it’s almost unfair to ask you of such a thing. It’s suddenly ripping away your coping method. It’s incredibly hard to stop cutting for someone else, just because they didn’t want you to cut anymore. I guess that’s a good thing…but YOU need to decide and really want to stop, not for someone else but for YOU. It isn’t easy, and you sort of have to tackle your problems and also find a better way to deal with things… Don’t feel bad because you’re finding it hard. Especially since these friends don’t seem to be very true to you.
Aye, what did get you started cutting?
6th grade. I was bullied pretty bad- even by my own family at school. My “best friend” was never there for me and after a while I never wanted to go to school aymore, but I felt like I couldn’t tell my mom or she’d be mad at me. That’s also the year we watched a video on cutting and how bad it is and what signs to watch for. The only thing I got out of that was it would take all my pain away. So I became a cutter.
Mmm telling people about cutting is never a good idea exspecially if they already depressed and suicidal the urge to try it is rather hard not to give into. But every time you cut they win, every attempt at suicide, every tear, every suicidal thought is a victory for them, maby its just me, maby im just too proud but id refuse to cut, and refuse to show outward emotion of distress, even when im howling on the inside, i dont like letting others win over me, and every time you cut they win, not you. Ur friends arnt really friends if they dont stick by you so i say fuck them, u dont need them, fuck those cunts that make your life hell, ur family dosnt haave the right to torment you. u HAVE TO STAND UP FOR YOURE SELF, cause no one else will do it for you, u are all that matters, whatever makes you happy is what you should do, live with no thought of consequences, no fear of what was, if it seems like a good idea give it a go. And if cutting makes u happy have at it, just make sure its ur own choice, not a reaction to some **** who thinks they can do what they want, treat u as they want, all that matters is u and what makes u happy, take care of you and the rest will sort it self out. Rant over 🙂