i hate people

what is it that they dont get,they can say they know you well, but the moment you put a front up all day to hide the pain behind a smile they assume your happy, then when you finnaly brake down, they say,(stop it, you were happy all day,)well go fuck your self cause if you knew me you would know i hide my emtions, and that was a front,they are so stupid, i even tell them and they must forget or something,i never make sence,or mabey those assholes from the group homes never been through the shit i did or even been through shit to understand, i hate people, every were i go there is anger , rage,memories that make me want to run from this state for good,sick of people, they say they are not like everyone els then they go and prove my point,how can i trust anyone in this world,and iv tried to be nice, but haveing a soft heart is a one way ticket to getting used,people see that as a weakness an they will take advantage of you,so after going through that my whole life, now i just give people dirty looks,its my defence mecignism saying, back the fuck off, i wont let you diseave me,someone said it was my cocie to trust, how can you trust someone that constantly lied to you, and on top a that, i think about it for the longest time, if i really had to trust somebody, it would be my only friend, and i ran into so many people and being abandond not only as a child by people that were sapost to be my family but pactically everyone i ran into,noone gave me a reason to trust,