I’ve posted a few times over the last little while. I guess this is the only place I’ve ever actually talked about this before. I’m tired. I don’t want to be me anymore. I know that no matter what happens I’ll never want to be. I’ve wanted to die for years and have just kept putting it off because of the microsecond that things started to look up. But it never fails that I will be right back in the hole again. I tired of the panic attacks and the sobbing for no reason and the short bursts of superficial happiness that keep me thinking I can do this when I can’t. I just need it to be over already. There’s nothing so horrible about my life to make me feel this way so it must be me. And I need to go.
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If you dont want to be you then be someone else. Ever heard of making an alter ego ? Well I think that would be great for you. Look into it , try it and you will probably like it but it take commitment
hey, fitzgerald… I understand the short bursts of happiness and the disappointment that follows… Been there, experienced that. Just don’t forget that you’re in the driver’s seat. If there is something about life that you don’t like, you can change it. Sometimes it takes work and effort… but it can be worth it. Like i. Zamora wrote, it takes commitment.
Hey I know how you feel, this is the only place i can come and talk about these things that plague me daily, to log on and see others feeling the same way I do, going through similar struggles. I don’t know if i am going to make it, i have been well, obsessed with suicide since i was ten, my life really never gets better no matter how hard i try and sometimes it feels like i don’t want to continue trying, ready to give up. I like what i. Zamora said, if we don’t like being us maybe we should change to be someone else. I don’t know if i can do that but anyway if u ever want to talk, email me just so u know i am a 25 yr old girl from michigan… Can always use someone to talk to. otherwise cya on the sp. Take care, stay strong!
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