Can’t stand this life anymore, i’ve had enough. People are jerks, they don’t care. My family are twats who want me to kill myself. I don’t want/need help. i don’t. I hate all of this anxiety and nerves… Things i haven’t told people just get worse. I’m not normal, i don’t belong here. Everyone keeps leaving..pretty soon i am going to be all alone…People email me, i love talking to you guys… you make me feel less alone. Don’t leave me. My days are pretty much routines, depression and MW3… i was told that i need a boyfriend, i don’t. that would just make it worse. Have you ever cut open the tops of all of your fingers in a rage, Because i have. The best pain i have ever experienced… but i wouldn’t recommend it. So much anger… i think i’m going crazy… but i’m not. Don’t botheremailing these suicide helplines, all they do is ask you questions and repeat the points, i’m giving up on the samaritans. I’m always up for talking to people, so you can email me… if you want… MissN.Jejna@live.co.uk… Can’t promise that some of the emails won’t be crazy though… so i apologise for that…My mental health has been destroyed…
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took me along friggin time to give into meds, now i am glad i have them, if i dont take them…BOOM downhill..if ur not on meds buckle down n get them IT IS OK….N U KNOIW WHAT? fuck all of them ,think about urself ,be selfish, r they EVER going to understand? NO never, not unless they r in ur position. But i understand, and many others do too. I am glad u are here with all of us~~~~~~~
I’m not allowed meds, the father won’t let me get them. He thinks i will trun into my mum which i really don’t want. I don’t want to be selfish? what’s the point… i’m glad you understand.
Y? dont u want to put urself first? u r important as much as the rest of us in this world…..ur needs,feelings are important for ur health! sounds like ur dad is being selfish n not letting u get the help u need, u r not ur mom n in hoim thinking/telling u so isnt right nor is it fair!!! may i ask how old u are? i am 53, marrried with COPD/emphesema amongst a bunch of other shit, i am glad u are here, this site has helped me tremendously, u r not alone…not here…..
u on FB? we can be friends…..come on, hang with me~~~~
ur.. i’m 15? and that’s why i love this site… -never alone<3.-
BTW~ u r normal, u were created, what is ‘normal’ to you? other people who dont have depression? guarantee it sweetie everybody has their issues…..
issues… haha…. everyone else is -perfect- :/
Bottom line…i support and RESPECT your feelings…….
yea they think they are…what a blow wen they find out they arent!!!! 😀
do u no wat COPD is? a lung disease,incurable thats my situation
i didn’t know what COPD is… i’m sorry :/ thanks you and the second comment made me laugh 🙂
LOL i see/feel ur smile~~~~~~~~ 😀
awww…shit happens as u get older~~~~ive smoked along time, still am, right now its damned if i do damned if i dont…so i do….
was diagnosed in jan with this, have had bouts with family already cus i still smoke, o well its my choice! 🙂
yup… you only live once, i tried smoking but can’t stick with it because my health is shit right now -_- everytime i smoke, i go dizzy and nearly pass out. That’s my fault… i don’t eat properly :/
may i ask? where r u? im in california,USA
Uk..
stress/depression affects our appetite…
thot so..u said ‘mum’ 🙂 what is our time diff? 8hrs?
i think it;s actually more like 5? and yes, it does :/
well i want to be here/there for you..i have 1 son who married last july…
i no wen i watched the royal wedding it was 8hrs ahead of me LOL thats y i asked 8…
urgh.. why did you watch that?! so boring.. -_- what do you mean?
is there nething i can do for u now? r u ok right now?
LMAO!!!!!!!! its a ROYAL WEDDING! dude!!! history~~~~~~ 😀
probably the last one i will see~~~~ive got 2/5 yrs sweetie~
i’m ok.. i think.. 2/5 years? … im so sorry… and im not a dude -_-
ive been given my death sentence, an incurable disease….but i have been given the time to take care of things, for that i am gratful…been trying not to mention GOD, but i jus did..i am very spiritual, i live by FAITH n ACCEPTANCE n meds~~~~~~
OH MY! i am so sorry bout the ‘dude’ comment, o geez i feel like a heal…..
…aw.. im the opposite, i feel so bad now…:/
oh crap *~*
naa… its ok?
ok so ur a chick? dosent matter neway…i still feel the same about you, n im here for you….NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ok that was exageratted the no was n the spelling is wrong…dont feel bad! LOL we are so cool~~~~~ 😀
HAPPY EASTER <3
ahaa… and i’m the crazy one 😉 i jokes! happy easter back to you! it’s a fat day for me… O.o
LOL~~ im not crazy im eccentric! (old) ok u gotta set me straight guy/girl/both? 😉 n honey at 53..ive got yeeeaaarrrss of crazy ahead of you~!@#$%^ <=crazy 😀 n PROUD OF IT!!!!!
Ive earned my meds! i also have diabetes…ugg i am controlling it at this time..
deffo both 😉 at leats thats what i tell Modern Warfare 3… O.o and in all of my 15 years, i have beaten your 53 years of crazy…
Hey! im a crazy person in training 😀
ok we will walk this path together…that ok with you?
do u want to keep in touch? if not i understand….i come on here bout 2/3 times a week n check in …..
yesh! chu is one funny guy 🙂 and why walk when we could skip? :3
i agree… im on Facebook are you? ill give u my FB address to contact me…i think u can contact me on here also? not sure…but if u dont, n just want to keep it here thats cool too…ur privacy is important….
i do have facebook..
http://facebook.com/mizworld1
hit me up! n i will welcome u to my world~~~~ 😀 all’s good sweetie~~~ <3 ok imma gonna go all spiritual on u, we were brought together, today, i am thankful for meeting you…
i knoww.. you can be like, my wise old owl 🙂 x
You sound like me so your not crazy. The alcohol will wear off eventually. Then you will be crazy.
OLD???? LOL~~~~ u got it! thank yu for trusting me, a total stranger, we will be ok ,promise. <3
GOD brought u to me today, n me to u~~~what a blessing! c how it works!! 😀 frnd req me then we can chat there on FB, check me out if u dont like unfriend me im ok with that!
i sent you a request… question, are you male or female?
And im not spiritual.. but its cool that you are.. 🙂
i am a female 53 married very happily, i1son who is married n lives nearby…brb imma gonna go check fb… ty! 😀 ill open a new window brb~~~
Duke.. if you are offering to get drunk with me then im free 🙂 i don’t like crazy so booze me up <3.
ok 🙂
o shyte i dont c it , ur req….my profile pic says…”love me or hate me…im still gomma rock, timeline pic is of me n my hubby
got it sweetie! u on FB now we can chat!
Your too young to be drinking yourself to oblivion. So I will do the right think and consume your share.
noo! share like a nice man!
Well, as long as you don’t tell anyone.
of course not, just don’t let me near other people while i’m drunk.
Oh you are so funny! i’ve been reading the topic and well, Nat is not your fault if everyone is selfish… i think that’s just thing of life, theres always rules that nature make us to follow. :-S
Nature… Ha… I don’t want to be selfish… Even though i probably am most of the time… O.o x
“My family are twats who want me to kill myself. ” …………if only they could see this.. that is a horrible thing to say.
It’s not selfish to feel emotions – if people say that to you i’m pretty sure it’s along the lines of emotional blackmail. I think it’s to do with fear – people fear what they don’t understand. It’s almost like that with sexuality, some people who feel like they want a boyfriend, sometimes don’t understand how you’re happy without one, and can’t really empathise with you.
Peoples attitudes towards things like depression and suicide seems to be:
a) Ignore it
b) Doubt your sincerity
c) Get angry
This is again to do with the not understanding. Society sees depression and suicide as lunacy. Society thinks suicide is wrong. Therefore as long as your depressed and suicidal, those who don’t understand, will treat you like a lunatic, and attention seeker or think your personally attacking them in some way. Well that’s my experience.
@Critical. I’m sorry..
@K. So true.. :/
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