Standing here breathless
Paralyzed and blinded
In the end of the bottomless
Agony beyond imagination
Searing me within
Nails pounded into my soul
Only to be removed and replaced
The torture slow and unending
I can barely pretend
Every smile causes me a thousand knives to the heart
Every laugh chimes, a haunting scream only for me to hear
I’m unable to bear much more
There is no turning back
The path behind has disappeared
There is only down deeper into my menacing self
No light shines here
Looking up in the distance
I can see you, your smiling face
Your trivial thoughts flicker under your eyes
Reminding me of what I should be
What I could have been
The torment doesn’t fade
There is no way back
But you make my march toward doom
A bit less miserable
And it helps to know
That when I’m gone
You and your defiant purity will shine on