I know that they won’t understand, and it is so frustrating. My mother has noticed the scars, how could she not, and she has since been trying to get me to talk to her. Her methods have included getting angry, trying to guilt me into talking to her and giving me ultimatums. The other day she confronted me right in front of my little brother, and today when we were arguing he said, “well atleast they don’t cut myself”. I thought my family would be different. I thought they loved me enough to atleast try to understand but no. My mother is as blunt as hell and doesn’t understand why i refuse to talk to her about my mental/emotional state. Maybe its because I know what’s she gonna say: your not depressed. What reason do you have to be suicidal?
I didn’t fucking want this! goddamn it…..anytime things start to go right, something always happens. It never fails…maybe it’s because “I don’t think ahead or I wouldn’t do stupid shit like cut myself”
They don’t understand. They’re scared. I understand that. It’s just a matter of time before my dad makes a snide ass comment….
but I don’t know how to tell them and get my point and how I’ve been feeling across. The will just shrug it off and tell me to get over it. I feel completely helpless. My loss of words is infuriating. I want to tell them. tell them that I’ve been struggling and severely depressed. But i dont know how to do that
sorry im ranting…oh well
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Maybe you feel like anything you say will not be taken seriously because it comes from you. If that is the case, get someone else to tell them.
See a psychologist or councilor if you can. Get that person to tell them. The words coming from someone else, from someone “official”, might work.
Then maybe they will realize the severity of the problem.