Hello lovely people,
My name is Jocylyn but everbody calls me Joyy. I am here if you need somebody to talk too. If im your last resort then thats fine too, I just want to make you happy. You all are Kings and Queens and I can prove to you that you are. Have a wonderful day. 🙂
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Thank you!
YOU ARE SOOOOO WELCOME !
Thanks…
its nice of you come by and help … I hope you stick around long enough to actually do some good. I’m not questioning your motives … but there’s been quite a few “do-gooders” that come here promising to “be there” only to either get bored or overwhelmed and -POOF- they’re gone.
it’s difficult, taxing and frustrating to do what you want to do … good luck meeting the challenge. please don’t make promises you can’t keep … many here are already wrestling with the feeling of abandonment. please don’t let them down.
consistent dawg
Yep, they all leave in the end.
always
I always wanted to be a good person as you. Everyone says I am nice and friendly and sweet. They notice I’m too quiet but they think I’m perfectly fine. Why won’t anyone bother to care. I’m 17 but I still feel as if I were an immature kid that grew to be a coward and hypocrite teen. I feel as if I’ve betrayed everyone around me. I feel I committed the worst sin, even worse than murder. I love everyone around me and I wish them the best and cause them little trouble, but I think they’ll be better without me. I feel as if I have a double life. My mind is evil in thoughts, but I do many favors and kind acts to my surroundings. Maybe if they knew me well, they’d think I’m a bad person and I would hurt them more than anything’s ever hurt them before. But no one knows this. I post it here because of the fact that no one knows my true identity,It would be sad to them to know this. I don’t know who I really am. Am I faking to be a good person? My conscience just kills me to see other’s eyes knowing that when they face me, they see the ace of disappointment, betrayal, stupidity, sinner yet they are unaware. I don’t deserve such beautiful and priceless things.
I actually found this site completely by accident, it is well setup and seems to be a supportive community.
I never intended to stay long but I did want to leave some helpful information before I am done.
Good luck
Vanessa, how have you betrayed everyone around you?
Also, don’t try so much to be a people-pleaser. Let them see the person that’s in your mind.
Listnr: let’s all hope that we can all get along and maybe someday trust someone. Take care.
It’s not so easy to buy your way into heaven. When I hear about some of the things people have been through, I am enraged. The reality is, most people who attemp suicide don’t immediately reveal their intentions on Internet forums. The ones who are successful, we don’t know what haunted them because we never made the effort to ask the question. When someone posts on here that they have been bullied, abused, had their lives taken apart, what do you say to them apart from the obvious crap. Yet we quite happily stand by and watch it happen each day. We take the easy option.
Vanessa, don’t worry about what make other people happy and don’t worry about what they think of you. because if you do you end up being around people you dont want to be around and it WILL become very stressful. If you try to please other people rather than yourself people are going to like you for the person that your trying to be rather than love you for the lovely person you are. If you find happiness inside yourself, other people will find happiness inside you too..
-To everyone else i am commited to this now, its important to me that people live happily, you may have a few regrets & sorrows but its not a reason to end your life. You all are IMPORTANT ! Enjoy life & Prosper ~TheListner~
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Duke – you can’t “buy” your way into a place that doesn’t exist. and you may “happily” watch … but I don’t think anyone is “happily” watching. We’re all scattered to the four winds but tied together with similar feeling and troubles. Most are looking for answers that can’t find and many of us honestly try to impart our knowledge and experience in hopes that people find those answers and coping mechanisms and skills.
no duke – i’d argue that when we take the time to read and respond to anyone else beyond our own story … that’s NOT taking the easy way out. It’s not easy to digest someone else’s pain and try on their skin and then try to convey to them a method to address their predicament through a media that deprives us of imagery, audio and touch.
That, sir, is HARD
truth dawg
At “Dawg” don’t say Heaven doesn’t exist. Everybody has there own opinion & im going to leave it at that.
The upside to heaven not existing, is that hell doesn’t exist either … I’ll leave it at that 😉
yes, everyone has an opinion … and freedom to express it.
atheist dawg
Physical death is nothing to fear. But death of conscience is a sure death.
Look Now “Dawg” I aint for all this going back & forth, I am a preachers daughter and i can be the nicest person in the world but i can also raise hell. I accept people the way they are, so i accept you being an “atheist” being that Im not GOD & I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO JUDGE. So if you want to despise Heaven i suggest you do it somewhere else & not on my post. Thanks xoxoxoxo
Have A Blessed Life 🙂
—Your friend, TheListner.
Dawg does not despise heaven. Quite the contrary.
@ Dawg
I have ingested more toxic poison that the world spews out than anyone cares to know. Even in my weakened state, I am still a force to be reckoned with but my words will never be enough to do what I want them to. Neither is anyone else’s. That’s why I am trying to sort things out. I care, more than you will ever know.
How can I despise something that doesn’t exist? it doesn’t matter if you’re the Pope or Charles Manson, this may be “your post” but my comment was VERY specifically directed to Duke.
FYI – I was raise a good christian as well … then reality set in. You’ll find wide ranging view on the subject around here … I might suggest you become a little more tolerant. Jesus likes tolerance.
dawg
What we believe does not matter, arguing about beliefs will not solve a problem.
The real question is; is it true for you? Do your beliefs help you be free from suffering?
Dawg makes a great point by describing encounters with others on here.
He aptly describes one of the four helper characteristics that I reference in my post “the Mentor”, empathy.
It is our ability to resonate with the pain of others that they find helpful.
This is a difficult Skill to master online.
Welcome Listner, I invite you to have a look at the many posts I have left here, in particular;
the Cutter
the Suicide
the Mentor
the Plan
They are written to help shed light on suicidal ideation.
Good luck
Dawg it’s ok. I am with you on this but there is no use in telling people things they don’t want to hear.
Everything I’m saying is because I’m in a bad mood, that is situations where those have the ability to act they don’t, and as a result, people end up on forums where they talk about ending their problems.
@Duke – I know you care brother – all we can do is our best. Sometimes it will be enough and sometimes it won’t. but know that in every attempt we make – someone stops their process to think of another way, if only for a moment – and THAT sir, is a WIN.
tigerblood dawg
You will see on my post, I read about two girls in a care home who couldn’t take the bullying and went to the nearest bridge and fell to their death. WTF. I would have walked in there and taught them a lesson. It will all be forgotten tomorrow and that’s why it keeps happening.
Thats so sad. but some people just need to build self-esteem & confidence. because i got bullied once, The girl kept calling me ugly she did it for two days. on the second day she knocked me down & called me a *****. if its one thing i dont like, i dont like being called a *****. so i got up and whupped her ass..
I did see that – perhaps out of respect for “the listener” we should move this conversation to that thread
uhaul dawg
It’s nearly 3am so I’m going to try and get some sleep. Goodnight all.
And Thelistener….. Pleased to meet you.
TheListner,
you have holy forces surrounding you, though I didn’t understand,
until I read that you are a preacher’s daughter, then it fits.
Only that you have unsettling thoughts too much, confused I would say.
Believe that, let all the GOOD in, ignore all those being negative, your spiritual circumference will be clear.
Those power of positives would congregate into simpler cohesion, FORCE.
Thanks, that motivated me.
Just to be clear – to “ignore all those being negative” is to ignore about 95% of the people here and to ignore their issues … this would be counterproductive to your stated mission. in a community such as this, negativity is the rule, not the exception and the targets of that negativity run the full spectrum of objects, people, subjects and deities.
To be “TheListener”, “TheGuardian”, “thehelper”, etc you are MAKING yourself the target of that negativity … you’re stepping if front of the bullet. It’s a dangerous job … and it will test the very core of your beliefs … but you can’t defend yourself AND help those that are falling at the same time, so you’re faced with a choice as to which action you find more important.
theDawg
Dawg,
this site is not a correctional institution, and certainly not in this last stop of life, the cave, as if one’s last resting place, where having nowhere to run, but has to shockingly find someone holding a taser again and again to prod, as if you the authority, the police, the father still to parenting each of us, would that make you proud ?
If that be bullying, isn’t that supposed just kid thing, why, are you still carrying on that trait, you are not young anymore, to get balance ? following your father’s trait of beating you to hell to obey but now you picking that up to reprimand others ? C’mon, you also have kids, be a “reasonable” role model ! We all made mistake, but never to act as the adamant-old, the never giving way.
The outside world that failing you, please not here for reclaiming your name or title.
Didn’t you always tell others to be a sensible and responsible adult ?
I hate to say this to alarm others’ feelings, but now I think I have to state it clear.
I’m anticipating death not even expecting a tomorrow, I’m living like there will be no other minute.
POOF, as you once mentioned that word, if any time that God is to take my breath away, I don’t even have any regrets !
And I don’t even anticipate any divine seat afterlife or to be on Earth again. I just want to be extinct !
I have needs, I masturbate, and I don’t anticipate sex from woman here, or out there.
As I don’t have any love from others, so I give instead as my conscience commands.
Physical joy, I know plenty, and that might be the lust keeping you here, but not me !
What ON EARTH really lacking here ? Certainly, not sex to ravish !
And how would I have the thought of competing with you for some or any woman you like here ?
Or do I want to be king here ? And would I even dream to be the king here to rule among losers ?
This is my last response to you. After that, I don’t have any further intention to answer you anymore.
I told you before, not to derive reasoning into fact, that is illogical, but you are doing it again.
I said,
“…let all the GOOD in, ignore all those being negative…”
And not as you like to argue as to intentionally put “people” involved to the end to make it “negative people”.
Just don’t be picky as a hater.
If you intentionally add “people” as the meaning to become “negative people”,
the whole sentence would become…
let all the GOOD “people” in, ignore all those being negative “people”
Are you maliciously implying sex too !
Whatever, would have twisted my original meaning.
Since you don’t even have the sense of a soul in you to believe, and I don’t even enjoy or being responsible to explain any fully to you.
As I addressed that comment intentionally to a soul person, and that definitely not to you.
And, quoting someone saying, but twisted the original meaning like this, is slander !
And of your second paragraph of comment, that stirring up commotion, in order to involve others intentionally by names,
what’s your intention ? Riot ? Isn’t it peace that matters for all of us here ?
Gawd
You are correct (again) Dawg.
Often I become a target of someone’s negativity, it’s normal, natural, and to be expected.
Part of the depressive cycle is to push others away and a safe venue like this is the perfect place.
My choice is clear, here as in my daily work.