My Story

So I have a kinda long story of my life but here goes:
So when I was 1yrs old my mom went to the hospital for back surgery, the doctors forgot to clean their tools from the previous surgery they have done and my mom got an infection affecting her spinal cord causing her to go blind and have short term memory lost. And I only saw my dad on the weekends because my mom and dad split up as soon as I was born and my dad had 3 of my brothers to take care of. So I had to live with my aunt and uncle. So everything was fine until when I was 7. I was sick one day and my uncle was in the cellar cause the oil guy was their and I went down there to get him cause the phone was ringing..so I guess my cough and the smoke from the oil collided and I stopped breathing, I was taken to the doctors where they kept shoving tubes down my throat to try to get me too breath better until the ambulance came and I was taken to the Emergency Room where I went into an 5 day coma. After about a month I got out of the hospital and then when I was 7 and a half for some reason no one knows I stopped seeing my dad. I was always depressed and then when I was 8 and a half I got rushed to the hospital and I went into yet another coma for 7days this time and they did every test they could possibly do and they found out I had Type 1 Diabetes and they told me if i waited 1 more day to go to the hospital I would of died..So I had to deal with everything that was happening at the time now I’m recently 12 and a half and I just started seeing my dad after 5yrs. My life seems too be getting back to normal but I still have to cope with the fact that I will never live with my dad or mom and I can only see my mom once a month (if i’m lucky) in a nursing home cause she can’t take care of her self. So if you were in my shoes would you be suicidal? I for sure am.