I am exhausted.
tired from acting happy while feeling nothing.
tired from going through the motions.
tired from not caring while pretending to.
impossible to dull the feelings when there are none.
what is it like to feel something?
what is it like to care?
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Sorry you feel tired. I can relate. I am comfortably numb.
In the spirit, nothing is dull. It is extreme terror and blood curdling screams. Agony and desperation.
Our lives may be boring, but our spirits are not.
Why don’t you stop acting happy? I remember when I was actually scared of no pretending to be happy because I was afraid of doing anything socially unacceptable.