dead outside

im dead on the outside i feel it physically and emotionally im too sad to do anything but lay in bed my energy level to get outa bed is completely gone, i hope i just die tonight no more pain im to much of a fuck-up i have done everything wrong i cant fix i cant take my words back the world is to cruel if i die at night the darkness i feel will stay forever maybe thats not so bad i will die to get away and outa of the pain i miss everythin i lost but i cant have them back so whats the point im already almost dead i shpuld finish it off and release the pain and join the dead ones.