I just don’t know what to say anymore, or what to think. I can’t get off from my head all the thoughts, the flashes keep coming as if there’s nothing more. Why, i tell myself, but no answer is found. And now I’m not sure if I want one. but it’s the guilt inside my head, and my hole body.
Is just another day, another hour, minute, and breath, but I can’t breathe anymore; the air is not getting inside of me. As I close my eyes every memorie is haunting me, I want to forget. I want to be able to look at me in the mirror and keep looking withouth horror, sadness and fear, just to look me in they eyes and see something inside.
The slightest movement in “the real world” activates deeper thoughts in the inner world, that I don’t want and need, but its automatic. I need help, I know I do, I’m destroying myself slowly bleeding, yet no one has ever realized, and so many times that I have tried to help myself, allowing someone to enter my world… such help has never come. I just wonder if anyone can hear me or see me? Because I think I lost myself, and I can’t be found still.