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I didn’t think I would live this long.

by vanillakitty 1/12/2023

written by vanillakitty

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I have been what I call “half-committed” to life and just about everything that entails since I was a teenager. I thought I would kill myself by sixteen. Then eighteen. Then twenty. Then twenty-two. And now I’m here on the brink of graduation with no idea what I like to do because I’ve been flirting with death my whole life.

I’m almost twenty-three years old and never really wanted to “do” anything with my life. When people ask me about my post-grad plans, I change the subject because I don’t know. I am finishing the degree because I’ve been told the only way to succeed in […]

1/12/2023 2 comments

Euthanasia in Belgium and the Netherlands (and the debate surrounding it)

by Taf Taf 1/19/2019

written by Taf Taf

I must apologize in advance, because I’m going to put a lot of videos and articles in this post and it will probably occupy a lot of space on the starting page of this site (needless to say, feel free to write your opinions about euthanasia in the comment section).

https://theconversation.com/separating-fact-from-fiction-about-euthanasia-in-belgium-58203

Euthanasia in Belgium

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3748787/Euthanasia-tourists-rush-Belgium-free-lethal-injections-staggering-2-023-medically-killed-year.html

https://newsmavens.com/news/aha-moments/2088/belgium-fears-euthanasia-tourism

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2018/12/24/brussels-denies-eu-rules-encourage-euthanasia-tourism/

And a PDF about euthanasia in Belgium:

Euthanasia practice in Belgium

1/19/2019 10 comments

Cat Stevens – Trouble

by Taf Taf 1/12/2019

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Trouble, oh trouble set me free

I have seen your face and it’s too much, too much for me

Trouble, oh trouble can’t you see

You’re eating my heart away and there’s nothing much left of me

–

I’ve drunk your wine, you have made your world mine

So won’t you be fair, so won’t you be fair

I don’t want no more of you, so won’t you be kind to me

Just let me go where I’ll have to go there

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Trouble, oh trouble move away

I have […]

1/12/2019 0 comment

Charles Baudelaire – The Desire for Annihilation (Le Goût du néant)

by Taf Taf 12/22/2018

written by Taf Taf

(poème de Baudelaire en Anglais et en Français)

The Desire for Annihilation (translated by William Aggeler)

Dejected soul, once anxious for the strife,

Hope, whose spur fanned your ardor into flame,

No longer wishes to mount you! Lie down shamelessly,

Old horse who stumbles over every rut.

Resign yourself, my heart; sleep your brutish sleep.

Conquered, foundered spirit! For you, old jade,

Love has no more relish, no more than war;

Farewell then, songs of the brass and sighs of the flute!

Pleasure, tempt no more a dark, sullen heart!

Adorable spring has lost […]

12/22/2018 2 comments

Gary Clark Jr. – When My Train Pulls In

by Taf Taf 12/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Everyday nothing seems to change

Everywhere I go I keep seeing the same old things

and I, I can’t take it no more

I would leave this town, but I,

I ain’t got nowhere else to go

–

Wake up in the morning to more,

more bad news and I

sometimes I feel like I was born to lose and I,

It’s driving me out of my mind

Gonna catch the next train and I

move on down the line

–

I’ll be ready now

I’ll be […]

12/21/2018 0 comment

Something’s missing but what.

by livedie 10/29/2018

written by livedie

I have everything in my life yet there is a great sadness in my heart. I just feel so hopeless and sad. And the worst thing is I have no idea why I feel so worthless and so tired of living. Everyday, I wish to die but I am afraid to try to do it on my own because I am scared about what will happen if i fail in my attempt. Everyday I wake up, I feel sad that I am still alive. I am an atheist. So, I don’t think some magic will happen and I shall be me again. I am lost. […]

10/29/2018 3 comments

Skip James – Hard Time Killin’ Floor Blues

by Taf Taf 10/28/2018

written by Taf Taf

(Acoustic) Blues

Lyrics:

Hard times is here and everywhere you go

Times are harder than ever been before

–

You know that people, they are driftin’ from door to door

But they can’t find no heaven, I don’t care where they go

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People, if I ever can get up off of this old hard killin’ floor

Lord, I’ll never get down this low no more

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When you hear me singin’ this old lonesome song

People, you know these hard times can last us so long

–

You […]

10/28/2018 0 comment

The Beatles – Eleanor Rigby

by Taf Taf 10/12/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

Ah, look at all the lonely people…
Ah, look at all the lonely people…
–
Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice
In the church where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream…
Waits at the window, wearing the face
That she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for…
–
All the lonely people,
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people,
Where do they all belong?
–
Father McKenzie writing the words
Of a sermon that no one will hear,
No one comes near…
Look at him working, darning his socks
In the night when there’s nobody there,
What does he care…
–
All the lonely […]

10/12/2018 1 comment

Paul Durcan – Thinking About Suicide

by Taf Taf 9/1/2018

written by Taf Taf

Although I may never commit suicide

I spend parts of each day thinking about suicide –

Thinking about how I lack the courage to do it.

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I wake in the mourning with 60 per cent depression.

That’s how it remains for the whole day,

Except for the odd occasion in a year

–

In the doorway or on the street I meet by chance

For a few minutes a woman passing-by

Who has the time to stop and talk for three minutes

–

Or five minutes or even sometimes seven or eight minutes,

Who rocks back on her heels in her pink, hooped skirt

With laughter, no matter what the topic.

–

Depression and despair are two different states

Of mind, […]

9/1/2018 2 comments

Suicide sites

by Taf Taf 8/15/2018

written by Taf Taf

Have you ever tried or even thought about committing suicide to any of these places? And do you have a place in which you would like to commit (or attempt) suicide?

As for me, I went to the Corinth Canal several times (for those who don’t know, I live in Athens, Greece), but I never thought to jump from the Acropolis of Athens… And I keep wondering why…

8/15/2018 4 comments

Constantine P. Cavafy – Trojans

by Taf Taf 8/11/2018

written by Taf Taf

Our efforts are those of men prone to disaster;

our efforts are like those of the Trojans.

We just begin to get somewhere,

gain a little confidence,

grow almost bold and hopeful,

–

when something always comes up to stop us:

Achilles leaps out of the trench in front of us

and terrifies us with his violent shouting.

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Our efforts are like those of the Trojans.

We think we’ll change our luck

by being resolute and daring,

so we move outside ready to fight.

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But when the great crisis comes,

our boldness and resolution vanish;

our spirit falters, paralyzed,

and we scurry around the walls

trying to save ourselves by running away.

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Yet we’re sure to fail. Up there,

high on the walls, the […]

8/11/2018 1 comment

Brian Eno – By This River

by Taf Taf 7/16/2018

written by Taf Taf

Here we are

Stuck by this river,

You and I

Underneath a sky that’s ever falling down, down, down

Ever falling down

Through the day

As if on an ocean

Waiting here,

Always failing to remember why we came, came, came:

I wonder why we came

You talk to me

as if from a distance

And I reply

With impressions chosen from another time, time, time,

From another time

7/16/2018 0 comment

Strange days,when you’re a stranger…

by Taf Taf 6/17/2018

written by Taf Taf

Will the doors of our perception ever be cleansed?

6/17/2018 3 comments

help me

by gabriella_ 4/8/2017

written by gabriella_

I don’t know how to handle this. I’m only 15 years old. How do you deal with depression, with feeling all alone, with wanting to die all the time? Sure I have friends that know what I’m going through cause they’re going through the same thing… but what if this makes you even sadder and depressed than you already are. I just want to be alone all the time. My parents don’t understand it. I do this thing where I refuse to get up and go to school because it hurts too much to move and I can’t even fathom being around people all day, I just wanna stay in bed […]

4/8/2017 3 comments

I feel Alone

by Nugget 2/28/2017

written by Nugget

I’ve complemented suicide since I was 7-years-old, it’s tragic and horrific knowing children experience such thoughts so young. I come from a family where discipline means a visit to a room with the doors closed and anything at hand. It meant having to contain my tears and cries or the pain would just get worse. At 13 I got bullied for being Hispanic, it was the first time I realized skin color had a meaning. I was stereotyped as a Mexican whose dad left and the only thing I’ve ever accomplished was hoping the border. My mother at that time would make my life at […]

2/28/2017 6 comments

Behind the closed door.

by AmandaBen 2/22/2017

written by AmandaBen

A poem written by me during my darkest moments.

Behind the closed door

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who hides her pain

Buried in so much sorrow

All hope is being drained

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl practicing to smile

To hide the truth from everyone

A mask in which will only stay for a while

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl with cuts that bleed red

From unbearable sadness

She’s only hanging by a thread

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who could no longer cry

She starts thinking

How will she say goodbye?

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl perfectly still

Who lost all hope

Who lost all will

Behind the closed door

Was where a girl once used […]

2/22/2017 5 comments

I feel like I should end my life

by Cryinginsilence 10/12/2016

written by Cryinginsilence

I don’t have that many friends and I’ve been abused. Not many people are there for me and I constantly feel alone all the time. Last night I was sobbing really hard and I had nobody to talk too. I constantly feel like nobody cares about me and that my life is pointless. I’m always helping other people out with their problems but when it comes to me I get nothing. I’ve even reached out to Forums and hardly nobody responded which makes me feel even worse and that nobody cares about me. Not even my own family supports me. I’m constantly always supporting people […]

10/12/2016 5 comments

Drowning in Sadness

by moonharrier23 10/4/2016

written by moonharrier23

I haven’t always felt the way I do now. At one point, the only thing that crossed my mind was happiness; but that was long ago. In the last few years, I’ve suffered from bipolar depression and severe anxiety. There are things that bother me now, which in the past, they never would have. Every day I wake up and I realize that the only feeling I truly identify with is sadness: pure sadness. I’ve told the people I know that I have thoughts of killing myself every single day of my life, but I feel like no one actually listens to what I’m saying. […]

10/4/2016 2 comments

Literally, Just A Friend.

by http.nicole 9/30/2016

written by http.nicole

I have friends. Well, not many, but I have them. I’m not very popular and the friends I do have are ones that are the kind that stick by you through everything. They help, or try to, but the depression I have goes beyond anybody. I’m not looking for sympathy, for comfort. I’m just looking for someone to understand.

I’m just a sad teenager from Flordia. Literally, if anybody wants to chat with me, to be my friend, please. I’m here.

9/30/2016 2 comments

What Are Your Reasons To Stay Alive?

by They Call Me Amy 6/6/2016

written by They Call Me Amy

Today I had a breakdown again, and I decided to do a list of things that I really enjoy and I’ll miss if I kill myself, because I will be… uhm… dead. So these are 16 things that can help me get through this day, and maybe tomorrow, and next week.

There is nothing very special here, but these are the things that bring some joy to my life, and they are my reasons to stay alive and not kill myself. I will read them every morning so they can help me battle my urges. Tell me about yours too! 🙂

1. My Parents
2. My Boyfriend

6/6/2016 30 comments

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