so today was good. i walked in, did my job and everything was right with the world. even though my boss hasn’t said anything, he atleast, even though he again was in a bad mood, made it a point to have fun with me. we got along fine. respect is still something that is going to have to be earnt as i still am quite pissed at his actions, but i have in a way forgiven him. i still have dark niggling feelings that threaten to push me towards the edge, but when i am focused on other things i can push them aside for a little while.
thanks for the great advice for those who gave me it. will write again soon