Feeling really lost at the moment.
I am currently studying for exams and doing my final essays for the year, the results i have gotten back have been great and usually when i get an A or A+ i can’t contain how happy i am, this excitement usually gives me energy for the next essay and so on.
However i have realised recently that i will never be happy with myself. And my life is not going to be better if i get good grades.
I can’t believe having good grades and excelling in school was a replacement so i didn’t have to face the reality that i will never be happy.
Making an appointment with a counselor tomorrow. Hopefully i can become normal, and happy like everyone else.
I am sick of being stuck in the dark.
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Great title. Sum it all up.
What did the counselor offer
I would like to challenge you a little (if you dont mind).
But what does it matter about grades??? really.
Does the piece of paper make you smarter? Does the piece of paper make you a better employee, boss, entrepeniur??
Gates have a degree? Jobs??
Screw the world. Seriously – SCREW the mentality. Prove them all wrong and be great dispite your grades. Be great even if you never get the damn diploma.
Hope my soap box speech helps. I hope you know I mean it from an encouragement standpoint.
Good luck.
@James
I have always tried to get good grades because it made me feel good. I have never done it for others, sometimes i don’t even tell other people. I just like the satisfaction of having completed something and getting the results.
I don’t know why it has always been important to me but just like cutting, it would make me feel better. But now neither of them work and i feel myself getting into a deeper and deeper depression.
@8532110
I couldn’t get a ride there so i didn’t go. Not sure if i’ll ever be able to go. . .