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First Meeting with my Counselor

by ClairDeLune 2/3/2014

written by ClairDeLune

When I said I think about suicide she was pretty baffled, but whatever, I wouldn’t think I was suicidal myself if I didn’t know better. So we talked about it and she told me several options, visiting a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or staying at a clinic for several weeks. I am not sure yet which one I am going to choose, but I have plenty of time till the next meeting.

One thing that bothered me though was this: I didn’t know how to tell her about my suicidal thoughts so I just said I was member of an online-forum … a suicide forum. She wasn’t […]

2/3/2014 10 comments

Aftermath

by Seana 12/9/2013

written by Seana

After I lost my friend, I didn’t know what to do or who to turn to, I wound up joining the wrong crowd. I was always a little bit of a drinker, I mean I liked the taste. But I got a little too tipsy one night, and I wound up sleeping with this guy whose last name I still don’t even know. I wound up getting pregnant after that, but I tragically lost the baby before I could even tell anyone, including my family. I wound up spiraling down into depression and “cutting” and I was just in a funk. As soon as I […]

12/9/2013 1 comment

Stuck

by kissnm10 8/26/2013

written by kissnm10

I got to this point where I didn’t want to die. I saw my future for the first time in years. I thought I had a future. I thought maybe I mattered, that maybe I could survive, that people liked me and I could handle relationships. I was so wrong. Here I am, in college sitting in my closet, wanting to escape again. I don’t think I can do this. I don’t have enough left in me to keep going. But I also made the mistake, in the time that I was feeling ok about myself and my life, to get attached to people again. […]

8/26/2013 0 comment

People Suck.

by iwillalwayslisten 8/22/2013

written by iwillalwayslisten

I feel like everyone is walking out of my life. Â The one person who really truly cared about me throughout my good and bad times, is being forced to move away. Â He’s not going to my school. Â He’s not allowed to have a phone. Â Or get on facebook. Â And his stupid counselor people think I’m a bad influence because we never got to see each other and I snuck him out of school and walked back to my house for an hour and then CAME BACK to the school afterwards. Â I hate people.

8/22/2013 4 comments

I’m not going out without a fight.

by mysmilecoversalot :) 7/31/2013

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Tomorrow morning Iâ€™m going to my first counseling appointment with a counselor of my choice who specializes in the areas I need help with most. Scared and anxious are words that donâ€™t even do the situation justice. Iâ€™m beyond terrified, but I will be strong and I will not resist help like Iâ€™ve always done in the past. I wish I had just one person standing by my side, telling me Iâ€™m making the right choice and I will be okay, but I donâ€™t. In the end we have ourselves and that has to be enough.

I have suicidal thoughts pretty much everyday that will […]

7/31/2013 4 comments

I’m trying

by sleeplessinSTL 7/30/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

As of right now, I’m at the bottom of the pit. If you look at my charts, I should be doing okay. But I feel so utterly depressed. I haven’t smoked weed or cigarettes in a month, and I’m not abusing my medicine. I’m also seeing a therapist and have hung out with my friends more often. Well, my clean friends that is.

Of course there’s a dark side though. I started drinking again. It’s not a lot, but I know it’s not good for me. Honestly though, if I don’t have a piece of the old me, I fear I’ll go insane. The thing is, […]

7/30/2013 10 comments

My Struggle…..

by zombielovergirl122 7/17/2013

written by zombielovergirl122

So, I have been planning on suicide on the 3rd next month. People are telling me not too but, I literally can’t take the pain anymore. I cut last night and I was clean for more than 3 months! But, anyways here’s my pointless story..

So, Last year. ‘8-3-12’ I kinda thought I was in love.
About a couple months into our relationship it was getting a little depressed.
The guy, Jt, told me he loved me everything and then a couple days later,
He just left me and told me everything was getting taken away from him,
his phone,ps3, home phone, etc.
So, I said […]

7/17/2013 1 comment

I Was Saved..For Now

by iamdying 6/29/2013

written by iamdying

This is my story, I would kindly like to ask you to not put rude comments. When I was a child I was mostly forgotten about. My sister had all the attention. My parents were both alcoholics, that forced my sister and I to be our own parents. I was probably about 1-3 I couldn’t take care of myself so my sister had to. My mom was a horrible drinker. She decided to pick us up from school one day drunk. As we drove back home my sister, she looked at me. Her face full of fear and turned around that’s when we heard the […]

6/29/2013 3 comments

God knows I can do it

by mysmilecoversalot :) 6/25/2013

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Last night was really scary. Iâ€™m 18, Iâ€™ve had suicidal thoughts off and on for over a year now, but lately they are pretty relentless. Yesterday I was having them all day, Iâ€™m not even sure why. I also just relapsed with my eating disorder. Every day I either restrict calories or eat and then make myself sick. I threw up twice yesterday. When it came time to go to bed I could not think about anything other than killing myself. I started to drift off and as I did I started picturing everyone who knows me going to my funeral and reacting to my […]

6/25/2013 12 comments

I Feel Bad For My Counselor

by thinkimready 6/17/2013

written by thinkimready

I have a great, great counselor. We’ve been through a lot together but things took a turn for the worse in my life about a year and a half ago and then I became physically injured on top of that. I had a list of phrases he helped come up with that used to help but now they no longer help. Like “I’m bigger than this” but I’m not, what I’m dealing with is bigger than me. I have fought and fought fought and almost made it, almost won but then I got smacked down and I can’t seem to beat my physical problems. I’m […]

6/17/2013 2 comments

Advice, Information, and.. maybe…help?

by Cardio_respiratory_stop 6/7/2013

written by Cardio_respiratory_stop

Hello! I’m writing this in order to get some help, and be sure that i’ve made the right decision.

I wrote this to another person on another website:Â <<<Â I feel the same as you do/did “Every day I wake up feeling terrible! I don’t want to die,i just don’t want to live like this.” and i felt it since i was your age 17/18 and then i was dreaming about killing myself but i talked to others and i was to weak to take my own life so i said that i’ll wait, that things will get better, two years have passed and i had a big […]

6/7/2013 2 comments

Suffering

by heybaby 4/28/2013

written by heybaby

I’m a freshmen in college-Best time of my life, right? Here’s what I have accomplished,Â failing classes, attempting suicide, countless anxiety attacks, depression and a stay at aÂ mental ward for a week.

Yeah,Â I tried to kill myself-I took…I don’t even remember how many handfuls of Tylenol. For awhile, the pills took away the pains I felt from either depression or the anxiety. I couldn’t feel anything. I banged my head against the wall-Nothing. I kept taking them, my heart was either beating too fast or too slow, I couldn’t tell which though. I got in the shower with my clothes on and just laid there. I was […]

4/28/2013 16 comments

Suggestions?

by kissnm10 4/28/2013

written by kissnm10

I’ve been seeing a counselor, and I really want her to know that I cut. I need help, and I think she needs to know everything to be truly effective. But I don’t know how to bring it up. Any thoughts/personal experiences with this?

4/28/2013 9 comments

Fuuuck my life

by Only-Here-For-My-Family 4/19/2013

written by Only-Here-For-My-Family

I don’t know if I should be here (This site) Only because I haven’t hurt myself in around 5 years, but lately I’ve been feeling exactly how I did when I was 13-16 (20 now), I just don’t really want to live anymore, (Already crying) I just can’t help it, whenever I’m alone I have to fight to keep myself from either bursting into tears or picking up the knife for the first time in years, I feel so helpless and I don’t know what to do, I want to see aÂ counselorÂ but I don’t really like telling my life story to new people every week […]

4/19/2013 3 comments

I Need Help!!

by Aussieinneed 4/16/2013

written by Aussieinneed

I’m a 21 year old male and i have enough of life trying to punish me.

Over the years i have been the subject of divorces, constantly being physically and verbally abused (both at school and at home), but these last few years have been the hardest. Recently i have broken up from my only relationship i have chosen to be in (3 years ago), been Â diagnosed with severe depression, Â Avoidance Personality Disorder (AvPD), numerous life-threatening medical conditions, family deaths, and being alone. I now know that being alone is the worst thing that could happen to anyone, however due to my inability to communicate to […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

Lonely in a Crowd

by kissnm10 4/5/2013

written by kissnm10

You know what’s funny? I’m sitting with a group of people, and none of them have any idea that I’m on a suicide website. My counselor says that I need to find someone that I can trust, but there isn’t anyone you can trust with suicidal thoughts. It puts them in a bad position. They either do nothing and then have to blame themselves when you go through with it or they report you to someone. It’s like, I just want to tell someone without them feeling responsible for me. What they don’t get is that my suicide is not a bad thing. For everyone, […]

4/5/2013 1 comment

So Confused

by kissnm10 4/1/2013

written by kissnm10

I hate how inevitable it feels. Like, I can pretend all that I want to be happy or that I have purpose or whatever, but it doesn’t change my fate. Like I’m destined for suicide. It’s what I always come back to, and it’s getting harder and harder to say no to it anymore. I don’t want to say no. I just want to be done with all this pain, and this world only dishes out pain. ItÂ isn’t going to end in this lifetime, so it’s like my only shot is in the next. But shit, I’m a Christian, and suicide is a sin. Will […]

4/1/2013 1 comment

alright then

by Sam 3/21/2013

written by Sam

I finally started talking to my counselor because I need help. Biggest mistake ever. She told me if I was going to commit suicide she had to tell my parents. She lied. I told her I think about it a lot. Now I sleep on my parents floor like a dog. Everyone talks to me like I’m about to die. I really messed up. I don’t think anyone would ever understand how much I care for my family. They are all I have even if that’s not much they made mistakes but I don’t like to stress them out or make them cry. I wish […]

3/21/2013 3 comments

I’m still alive

by Sam 3/13/2013

written by Sam

I miss being a little kid the world was so pretty and I loved life. Now things are not what I expected to be like. I often wonder if I could of fixed it. My life just shattered. MyÂ counselorÂ thinks my depression is caused by my past. Maybe it was I’m not sure but I just I want to feel good again not feel so disconnected all the time. I have really bad social anxiety I have no friends I’m alone. I think I like being alone I pushed all of Â them away. Yet sometimes I wish I had someone who just understand me. I am […]

3/13/2013 2 comments

Shouldn’t of spoken

by lma3932 3/6/2013

written by lma3932

I’ve been able to keep my thoughts secret for years now, without ANYONE knowing about the cutting or thoughts of suicide. But someone finally figured it out. And when someone finds out a secret that big they can’t keep it to themselves because if I were to finally kill myself, they’d only blame themselves. But they don’t realize that with every new person that finds out, it gets worse. The cutting has almost doubled and I just want to kill myself. People have been asling me to go talk to a counselor or a priest. I finally went to see a counselor and now they […]

3/6/2013 3 comments

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