Still moving forward and no longer care what’s going on. My heart is still trying to interrupt me every time I do something. I ignore it. I ignore my mind too. I just stuff it with more learning so it will leave me alone.
I started studying Vietnamese a language I wanted to learn for awhile but couldn’t find the resources online. I learn very fast, but I keep drilling away at each lesson. Writing, listening see the words and pictures and I’ll do it several times before moving to the next. I’m doing anything so I don’t have to think about what’s going on.
I’m moving fast. I don’t want to remember too much of the days. Just trying to immerse myself in this new thing. I don’t feel comfortable taking a break. I don’t want to rest. If I move faster it won’t catch up to me.
It still does though. It’s still there. I just dodge it as best as I can. I’m still taking a few photos. I’ve done some yard work outside. Moving blindly and unstable. Muscles burning, heart pounding to keep up and hips that want to yell out at me. I’m working to go out with a bang in the future.
This is what I need to do. Learn, hurt, race, and blindfold. I’m not going anywhere I’m just going. My feet move but my eyes don’t see.
I’ll be seeing a doc about these hips today. Maybe I can do work longer than 8hrs at a time. It’s no fun when they become painful enough to make you walk like you’re a zombie trying to walk with “dead” legs Happy they aren’t but that isn’t helping the fact I cant walk, sit or lay until it subsides.
So i’ll have a new adventure today. I’ll be excited. That’s how I am. Easily excitable, hard to calm down.